??? well yesterday I had a strange experience I came home did my blogging/facebooking and fixed a plate of leftovers. turkey breast with a spoonful of gravy, cranberry sauce, and 2 deviled eggs. I ate it and it was good then took a drink and my entire throat seized up and actually expelled the drink thru my mouth/nose. immediately after that I felt I was gonna hurl so I ran to the restroom and started dry heaving. I actually had to put 3 finger all the way down my throat to finally vomit and it was awful. I felt like my insides were getting ripped apart.....I waited a while and tried a small sip and it went down fine. I finally had some cheese and soda crackers just to have something on my stomach. but since then it's been just fine. I had a chicken biscuit at work and I just ate some scrambled eggs with no problem................I'm gonna check with my sister and see if she was having issues with her acid reflux at that time. I feel like this may be a psychic connection/empathy kind of thing as there's no physical reason for it to happen with me.
as far as it goes I made it thru thanksgiving with little if any guilt. two pieces of pie over 2 days aint gonna derail/kill me!
every once in a while a song "HOOKS" me for reasons unknown and somebody to you by the vamps and demi lavota has managed to enthrall me. I'm not a boy band fan or the young girl singers either I tend to like older artists but by golly this song is a feel good, clap along anthem! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0go2nfVXFgA&feature=share
(Yeah you)
(Yeah you)
I used to wanna be Living like there's only me But now I spend my time Thinking 'bout a way to get you off my mind (Yeah you)
I used to be so tough Never really gave enough And then you caught my eye Giving me the feeling of a lightning strike (Yeah you)
Look at me now I'm falling Can't even talk, still stuttering This ground of mine keeps shaking Oh oh oh now
All I wanna be All I ever wanna be, yeah, yeah Is somebody to you All I wanna be All I ever wanna be, yeah, yeah Is somebody to you yea all i wanna be all i ever wanna be yea yea is somebody to you
Everybody's tryen be a billionaire But every time I look at you I just don't care Cos all I wanna be All I ever wanna be, yeah, yeah Is somebody to you (Yeah you)
I used to run around I didn't wanna settle down But now I wake each day Looking for a way that I can see your face (Yeah you)
I've got your photograph But baby I need more than that I need to know your lips Nothing ever mattered to me more than this (Yeah you)
Look at me now I'm falling Can't even talk, still stuttering This ground of mine keeps shaking Oh oh oh now
All I wanna be All I ever wanna be, yeah, yeah Is somebody to you All I wanna be All I ever wanna be, yeah, yeah Is somebody to you
Everybody's try be a billionaire But every time I look at you I just don't care Cause` all I wanna be yeah All I ever wanna be, yeah, yeah Is somebody to you (Yeah you)
Look at me now I'm falling Can't even talk, still stuttering All I wanna be All I ever wanna be, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah (Yeah you)
All I wanna be All I ever wanna be, yeah, yeah Is somebody to you All I wanna be All I ever wanna be, yeah, yeah Is somebody to you (Yeah you)
All I wanna be All I ever wanna be, yeah, yeah Is somebody to you (somebody to you) All I wanna be All I ever wanna be, yeah, yeah Is somebody to you (Yeah you)
Everybody's tryna be a billionaire But every time I look at you I just don't care (i just don't care) Cause` all I wanna be All I ever wanna be, yeah, yeah (yeah) Is somebody to you (somebody to you)
Cause all I wanna be All I ever wanna be, yeah, yeah Is somebody to you
(Yeah you)
(Yeah you)
anytime something makes me this giggly I HAVE to buy the music so I can relive that feeling at will! plus I really think you should feel/sing this to the self!
just in case and so there's no misunderstanding I am thankful for my life and all the people in it. my health, my home, my job, and most of all my raising and common sense!
thanksgiving was NOT the high calorie hot mess pig out of past years I remained in control and was perfectly satisfied.
I ate turkey breast, gravy, coleslaw (2tbs), deviled eggs and a slice of cranberry sauce for lunch.
I purposely skipped the rolls, pies, etc
for dinner I took more turkey , gravy, cranberry sauce, deviled eggs. I also took a chunk of a cheese log 5 triscuits and a small slice of banana cream pie. I ate this at work so I didn't suffer or do withoutbut I was strategic as I didn't want to eat a ton then go to bed. by eating at work I took 13264 steps to offset the extra calories and keep the metabolism up. sometimes those small details make a HUGE difference. it also kept me from feeling bloated and stuffed in misery for a whole afternoon like I usually do.
hope y'all had yourselves a great day too!
During March 1623 Myles Standish lured two Chiefs to a meeting then murdered them. The picture of the monument, erected by the Weymouth Historical Commission, depicts how the town of Weymouth, Mass, takes pride in his barbaric deed.
What Hellish Pride and Prejudice
What in hell is a hearth built on blood of a brother’s harvest you absconded, along with a curve of land kissed by ocean for first people given this fine land, who were sickened on your flu-filled flannel gifts until they were too weak to wise on to your malicious plans? You merchant-adventurers of Weymouth, mount your monument of treason against corn-fed Wessagusset, as you celebrate 300 years of your encroachment on eternity’s placement of a people who had heroes like Pecksuot who, even thirty years ago, still, is said, tucked a child into her covers at Bricknell house so she did not have to see your scurrilous skirmishes. You promote your pestilent importance on this land, as if you thought you would be allowed to stay forever. You hold a fatal flaw in this grasp to make it seem you made something worthy. What is worthier than Wampanoag in first light, who had their blood spilled by you, on the very ground you grind against? Listen, they speak, and trace truthful steps through and around this place you think you own: Such pride and prejudice in this piece of cement that will not outlast us, the true people of the East, or sun that burns red on mornings it remembers. Carol Desjarlais
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New York Times November 25, 2004 Banned in Boston: American Indians, but Only for 329 Years By KATIE ZEZIMA BOSTON, Nov. 24 - It is a prejudicial, archaic concept that prohibited Native Americans from entering a city for fear members of their "barbarous crew" would cause residents to be "exposed to mischief." But it is more than notions and phrases in Boston. A ban on Indians entering Boston has been the law since 1675. Mayor Thomas M. Menino took a step toward repealing the ban on Wednesday, filing a home rule petition. Mr. Menino said a repeal would remove the last vestiges of discrimination from a vibrant, diverse city that is looking past old racial conflicts. "This law has no place in Boston," Mr. Menino said. "Fortunately this act is no longer enforced. But as long as it remains on the books, this law will tarnish our image. Hatred and discrimination have no place in Boston. Tolerance, equality and respect - these are the attributes of our city." Joanne Dunn, executive director of the Boston Native American Center, said she laughed a bit as she drove into Boston on Wednesday, realizing that she was, technically, breaking the law (being without benefit of the "two musketeers" required to escort American Indians with business in the city). "For us indigenous people it brings some closure," Ms. Dunn said. "You come into the City of Boston and it crosses your mind that you're not welcome here." The Boston City Council, which in April 2003 unanimously passed a resolution calling for repeal, must now approve the petition to remove the ban. The repeal must then pass the legislature and be signed by Gov. Mitt Romney. A spokeswoman for Robert E. Travaglini, the president of the State Senate, said Mr. Travaglini had not seen the petition and would allow the City Council to act before considering action. A spokeswoman for Mr. Romney, a Republican, said he had not seen the petition either and would be "happy to take a look at it" when it crossed his desk. Felix Arroyo, a city councilman, said he expected the measure to pass unanimously at a council meeting on Dec. 1. "I think all of us will look forward to voting yes on this," Mr. Arroyo said. The Massachusetts General Court enacted the law, called the Indian Imprisonment Act, in 1675. The legislation came at the height of King Philip's War, a conflict between the Wampanoag tribe, led by Metacom, known as Philip, and settlers near Plymouth, Mass. The war began in 1675 with a raid on the town of Swansea and spread across Massachusetts, spilling north to New Hampshire and south to Connecticut. The war, one of the bloodiest on American soil, ended the next year. The law rolled over when the state's Constitution was enacted in 1780 and has lingered for centuries, with no one taking the steps to repeal it. The Muhheconnew National Confederacy, a lobbying group based in Falmouth, Mass., started pushing for repeal in 1996 after working with the city to protect Indian burial grounds on the Boston Harbor islands. The group petitioned the legislature, then the city, and received the necessary resolution last year. It renewed the push in July, before the Democratic National Convention. "It means a great thing," said Sam Sapiel, 73, a member of the Penobscot Nation of Maine who lives in Falmouth and worked with the Muhheconnew Confederacy on the repeal. "It's what we've been striving for." It was little coincidence that Mr. Menino signed the petition the day before Thanksgiving. The podium at the news conference was decorated with a splash of crimson chrysanthemums, and the desk Mr. Menino used to sign the petition was festooned with a pumpkin and other gourds. An Indian leader also invoked the holiday. "Being so close to Thanksgiving, this is a good day for native people," said Beverly Wright, a member of the Wampanoag tribe of Martha's Vineyard, the state's only federally recognized tribe. "It's been on the books for a long time." Ms. Wright believes there might be other, similarly discriminatory laws. Mr. Menino said he would look into the possibility of repealing them. Please click to read about The Doctrine of Discovery: http://www.danielnpaul.com/DoctrineOfDiscovery.html Please click to read about Christopher Columbus: http://www.danielnpaul.com/ChristopherColumbus.htmlQuoted from a 2010 Interview: Alex Doherty: You have claimed that a close parallel to the conquest of America is the Nazi invasion of Eastern Europe. To many that will seem an outlandish and even an offensive comparison - can you explain why you think it is apt comparison? I’m not comparing the events but rather the reaction to them. Here’s my argument I have made: Imagine that Germany had won World War II and that a Nazi regime endured for some decades, eventually giving way to a more liberal state with a softer version of German-supremacist ideology. Imagine that a century later, Germans celebrated a holiday based on a sanitized version of German/Jewish history that ignored that holocaust and the deep anti-Semitism of the culture. Would we not question the distortions woven into such a celebration and denounce such a holiday as grotesque? Now, imagine that left/liberal Germans -- those who were critical of the power structure that created that distorted history and who in other settings would challenge the political uses of those distortions -- put aside their critique and celebrated the holiday with their fellow citizens, claiming that they could change the meaning of the holiday in private. Would we not question that claim? Comparisons to the Nazis are routinely overused and typically hyperbolic, but this is directly analogous. When I offer this critique in left/liberal circles, some people acknowledge that the argument is valid but make it clear they will continue to celebrate Thanksgiving. Others get angry and accuse me of posturing. It’s not posturing, but rather a struggle to understand how to live in a culture that cannot tell the truth. Robert Jensen is a professor in the School of Journalism at the University of Texas at Austin and a board member of the Third Coast Activist Resource Center. New Left Project’s Alex Doherty talked to him about Thanksgiving, the murder of indigenous people and the theft of their land by European colonialists.
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Thanksgiving . . . But Who to Thank? by William Loren Katz November 12, 2010 Thanksgiving remains the most treasured holiday in the United States, honored by Presidents since the Civil War when Abraham Lincoln used to stir northern patriotism. Thanksgiving has often served political ends. In 2003 President George Bush flew to Baghdad, Iraq to celebrate Thanksgiving Day with U.S. troops. He brought a host of media photographers to capture him carrying a glazed turkey to the troops. He flew home in three hours, and soon after TV brought his act of courage and generosity to Americans. But the turkey he carried to the soldiers in Baghdad was never eaten. It was cardboard, a stage prop . . . Thanksgiving as a photo-op. Baghdad in 2003 had a lot in common with the origin of Thanksgiving. In 1620 149 English Pilgrims aboard the Mayflower landed at Plymouth and survived their first New England winter because Wampanoag people brought them corn, meat and other gifts. Then in 1621 Governor William Bradford of Plymouth proclaimed a day of Thanksgiving - but not for the Wampanoag saviors but his Pilgrims. His Christian settlers had staved off hunger through their courage, resourcefulness, and devotion to God, that was his spin. To this day most politicians, ministers and educators describe this First Thanksgiving as the Governor did. Bradford's fable is an early example of "Eurothink" – another example is "Columbus discovered America" -- an arrogant lie that casts European conquest as progress. European settlers saw Native Americans -- who were neither Christian nor white -- as undeserving. The heroic European scenario of school texts rarely has room for others. Bradford claims Native Americans were invited to the dinner. Really? Since Pilgrims classified their dark neighbors as "infidels" and inferiors, if invited at all, they would be asked to provide and serve and not share the food. English military power pushed westward after 1621. In 1637 Governor Bradford, without provocation, dispatched his militia against their Pequot neighbors. As devout Christians locked in mortal combat with heathens, Pilgrim soldiers assaulted a village of sleeping men, women and children. Bradford rejoiced: "It was a fearful sight to see them frying in the fire and the streams of blood quenching the same and horrible was the stink and stench thereof. But the victory seemed a sweet sacrifice and they [the militiamen] gave praise thereof to God." Years later Pilgrim Reverend Increase Mather asked his congregation to give thanks to God "that on this day we have sent six hundred heathen souls to hell." School texts still honor Bradford. The 1993 edition of the authoritative Columbia Encyclopedia [P. 351] states of Bradford, "He maintained friendly relations with the Native Americans." The scholarly Dictionary of American History [P. 77] said, "He was a firm, determined man and an excellent leader; kept relations with the Indians on friendly terms; tolerant toward newcomers and new religions . . . ." The Mayflower, renamed the Meijbloom (Dutch for Mayflower), continued to make history. It became one of the first ships to carry enslaved Africans to the Americas. Currently Thanksgiving celebrates not justice or equality but aggression and enslavement. It affirms racial beliefs that led to the world's worst genocide -- the wanton destruction of tens of millions and ancient cultures. It's time for a different American Thanksgiving. I suggest one that honors the American continent's freedom-fighting tradition that ended European colonial rule. This began a century before the Mayflower landed, and it leading figures were enslaved Africans and Native Americans who fled their chains. Thousands united in "maroons" settlements creating an alternative society to colonial tyranny and slavery. As early as 1605 red and black men, women and children had formed the Republic of Palmares, a great three-walled city in northeastern Brazil and it grew to 11,000 people. To survive it fought off dozens of Dutch and Portuguese armies, and lasted until 1694. The freedom-fighters of Palmares left no written record. But their ideas of liberty, equality and justice surfaced again on July 4, 1776. William Loren Katz is the author of forty U.S. history books. This essay is adopted from his Black Indians: A Hidden Heritage. His website is http://www.williamlkatz.com Click to read about American Indian Genocide
well I can finally say I'm merely overweight at 207 and not obese!
of course I need to be 175 to be at the high end of healthy so that's another 32 pounds I need to drop. that actually puts me 10 pounds lighter than I was in high school which is nuts I was thin (I thought I was huge)
we can be so self critical when if we just saw the reality it's so much better than we think, then we flip it and go down that gorram river in Egypt and don't see how bad it is! lolol
PEOPLE IS THE SILLIEST CREATURES!
ANYWHO THIS IS A CURRENT SHOT! NOT TOO SHABBY FOR 46! (I was 17 in the above shot!
all of this crap in ferguson has just gotten crazy and I don't get it. he was a thug who'd already robbed a storte violently (he picked clerk up by neck and shook em like a rag doll) he had a handful of cigars he stole and was walking in the street. when stopped by officer he slammed door on him and punched him in the face. these facts are NOT disputed. the fight continued on and that's where eyewitness stuff gets dicey, however the fatal shot was in the top of his head, he was 6ft 4 the cop well unde3r 6 ft. not a single person says he was on his knees so the ONLY plausaible explanation is he was charging the officer with his head down...........I'm sorry but the officer responded in the only manner/option he had at the time. being unarmed does not make you nondangerous! the police HAVE to win in an altercation or more damage can be done if a suspect were to get their weapons/taser etc.
burning your own town and stealing tvs and stuff doesn't honor the dead man it's just a bunch of hooligans looking for a reason to spread violence and chaos. unfortunately at this point they're like a pack of rabid dogs there is no cure or no going back. martial law needs to be declared and the city will have to be taken back by force. I'm also gonna say that several witnesses didn't actually witness anything and were just goin for their 15 minutes. perjury charges should be brought. this cant happen every time a verdict doesn't appeal to the African American community and I'm sorry to say that's a racial thing. stop blaming your life and everything on others do something positive to fix it. martin luther king would be appaled by this nonsense. white people just don't do this, I mean oj killed 2 white people and got off and I heard lots of comments from the African American community/media/commedians about how it was about time a black man got away with killing a white bitch.... mayhaps y'all need to listen to the late great Maya Angelo!
If you feel consistently challenged by weight loss efforts, you’re not alone! Take the following quiz to find out what might be tripping you up. 1. A typical weeknight dinner looks like: A. Whatever’s in the fridge and pantry (usually a hodgepodge of cheese, crackers, pretzels, hummus, leftovers, etc.). B. Nothing. I often end up skipping dinner. I’m too busy with work or my kids or I get caught up with other things in the evening. C. Pizza, Chinese food or another kind of takeout—whatever I’m in the mood for. D. A meal in a sit-down restaurant. I often dine out with business colleagues or friends. E. A home-cooked but not-too-fancy meal. 2. In my grocery cart, you’ll usually find: A. Mostly snack items and things for the pantry, plus some essentials like fruit, milk and eggs. I rarely make full meals at home. B. Mostly convenience or frozen foods and kid-oriented items for lunches. C. Prepackaged and frozen meals. D. A mix of fresh produce, red meat or chicken, bottled water, maybe some ice cream or another treat. I stay far away from the “diet” aisle. E. A good variety of healthy basic (vegetables, chicken, pasta, etc.). 3. On weekends, I tend to: A. Eat too much or too frequently throughout the day. I rarely feel satisfied and snack a lot. B. Run errands and be on-the-go during mealtimes, which makes it hard to sit down for a balanced meal. C. Eat more junk food and have heavier meals than I do during the workweek. D. Have just 2 meals, such as brunch and a dinner out. When I get to meals, I’m really hungry and often consume more than I need to, leaving the table too full. E. Eat similarly to how I do during the week; maybe I’ll go out to dinner once.
4. I usually grab a snack: A. When someone offers me one. B. When I realize I’m hungry and won’t have time for a real meal. C. When I’m craving something specific, like chocolate or salty pretzels. D. When I get the chance to sample something really unique and delicious. E. In the mid-afternoon to keep my energy up between lunch and dinner. 5. I cook at home: A. Rarely. By the time dinner rolls around I’m usually too hungry to think about cooking and I don’t have the right ingredients on hand. I end up making a “meal” out of whatever’s in the fridge or pantry. B. Often. I usually make meals that I can whip up quickly. C. Almost never. I’d rather pick up what I’m craving than attempt to make it. D. Sometimes. But I really only enjoy cooking if I have quality ingredients on hand and plenty of time to prepare them. E. Almost always. I want to ensure I’m cooking and eating healthy meals. 6. I eat most of my food: A. Late at night. I tend to forget to eat during the day unless I’m especially hungry. B. At dinner time. That’s when I finally have time to sit down for a substantial meal. C. Whenever I’m really, really hungry. I often have cravings for sweets and carbohydrates. D. At lunch and dinner. I try to have a very light breakfast so I can indulge later. E. Spaced pretty evenly throughout the day. 7. When it comes to portion sizes: A. I typically don’t pay much attention. B. I try to be conscious of them, but I don’t usually bother measuring out portions. C. I generally eat what’s given to me. A lot of my meals are already pre-portioned or prepackaged. D. I usually have moderate portions and can tell when I am full. 8. What’s your biggest challenge when trying to lose weight? A. I feel hungry all the time. B. I don’t have time or energy to prepare complicated “diet” meals for myself. C. I get derailed by cravings. D. I feel restricted to eating “diet” foods, which I hate. E. It’s a mystery. I feel like I’m doing all the right things, but the weight isn’t coming off. 9. Fruits and vegetables are: A. Rarely on my plate. B. Things I enjoy, but I usually reach for ones that are portable (like a banana). C. Something I like but I don’t get a lot of variety. If I’m in the mood for blueberries, I might eat a whole container but then not have any other fruit for the rest of the day. D. A large part of my diet. I try to buy the freshest, best produce available. E. I try to eat them at every meal, but usually stick to the same 3 or 4 types. Answer Key If you answered mostly As… You’re a Mindless Muncher You love a good snack when you see it. Multiple snacks tend to compromise the majority of your “meals” throughout the day… which means you often rack up excess empty calories without you realizing it. Your best Get Real Diet defense: Keep the snacks, but save them for snack time. Plan ahead and make sure you eat 3 meals a day, with a snack or two sprinkled in as a treat. If you answered mostly Bs… You’re a Time-Crunched Dieter You’ve got an incredibly hectic schedule and are generally balancing more than you chew, literally. You often find yourself skipping meals or get caught in sticky situations without healthy meal or snack options. Your best Get Real Diet defense: Plan and prep ahead of time! Set up a weekly grocery shopping list, get into the routine of planning out healthy meals and snacks ahead of time, pack a few “emergency snacks” in your bag, and always be sure to keep fruit and vegetables in the fridge. If you answered mostly Cs… You’re a Cravings Crasher Every time you’ve attempted to drop those extra pounds, you get derailed by cravings and lose steam. Take a closer look at what might be bringing on those intense cravings and learn how to better manage them and smartly address them. Check your diet for too many artificial sweeteners or sugar-free products, which can spike sweet and carbohydrate cravings. Address cravings smartly and in smaller portions; have a small piece of chocolate if that’s what you desire, but don’t skip dinner in lieu of half a chocolate cake! If you answered mostly Ds…You’re a High Taster You have an aversion to “diet” foods and don’t think much of fad diets, which is good news. You love a good meal out and great quality food, but you may be eating too much of it which makes it hard to keep the pounds off. Your best Get Real Diet defense: Remember to focus on portion sizes and ensure that you’ve got a balanced plate at most meals: 50% fruit/vegetables; 25% lean protein; 25% whole grains/healthy carbohydrates. If you frequently eat meals out, make an effort to cook at home a few more times a week when possible. Check out these deliciously healthy recipes. If you answered mostly Es...You’re a Balanced Eater Who Needs a Push You do your best to eat, shop and cook healthfully, but you’re still not losing weight. Many things might explain this, but it’s quite possible that your metabolism has slowed a bit with age—which means you need to cut back on what you’re eating (yes, even healthy foods) if you want to slim down. Leaving a quarter of your food on your plate at every meal could make a huge difference. You might also try pushing your body out of its comfort zone by experimenting with some new meals and flavors. Another great way to give your metabolism a boost and burn calories: Get moving! Regular exercise (both cardio and strength-training) just may give your body the kick it needs.
who'd thunk it I have ,mostly Es, 4 to be exact, and 2 each of As and Bs, with one D.
y'all know I've loved Jillian Michaels for a long time but as of late she's a conundrum to me, she said this in an interview with health magazine...
You know the kind, says Jillian: "Everyone's like: 'Give up carbs!' 'Give up fat!' 'Wait, no, now I'm taking pills!' None of them are manageable long-term—and they wreak havoc with your metabolism! Because you're either starving yourself or you're cutting out a major food group. Then you go back into weight-gain mode, but it's even worse, because your body has adjusted to all that crazy fad crap."
but she sells weight loss pills and such at wal mart..WTF? so do you believe it but still plan to use the fat folks desperation to make a buck? BIG sigh alas I feel we're all on our own as everybody even those that care still have their hand out for the almighty dollar.
so as with all things I hear/read I take it with a grain of salt.......(d y'all think all this sodium is making me retain fluids? lol) and here's the thing research everything that sounds plausible and doable to you take that which works and use it in combo with all the other things life experience has taught you. common sense is key and yes a calorie is a calorie but we all know not all calories are equal. 300 calories of sugar reacts far differently than 300 calories of protein and that's MY truth thru experience. it doesn't spike your blood sugar or wreck your metabolism.
so my idols have feet of clay, well ya know what don't we all...so mayhaps I'm just gonna go off script and do it MY way, I've maintained 207 for months doin that with little or no exercise and eating whatever I wanted. now don't get me wrong I maintained but I also figured out some stuff too. bread just no longer tsates good to me and when I eat lots of carbs or too much sugar I get gas, BAD! I also tend to get bowel "issues" to go along with it. protein gives me a level source of energy without that burst and crash nonsense.
so I'm gonna temp fate and state a goal, a short term one that I've tried to accomplish many times and failed miserably (don't y'all love self-sabotage) I want to be in ONEDERLAND by new years day. now iunderstand that the holidays are fraught with emotional bombs and temptations but some turkey breast and unglazed ham along with a deviled egg or teo suit me just fine. i'll forgo the pies and such for thanksgiving. see this year I'll be all alone the from dec 22 till the new year so I simply wont have any trigger foods in the house. as for thanksgiving we're kinda doin a combo and having turkey breast, ham and doin sandwiches (i'll skip the bread) we also ordered our usual Christmas treats from swiss colony of cheeses and meats so I can partake (in moderation) of them also. all in all it should work out just fine.
my biggest obstacle is my own apathy and sheer lazy. I pay $19.99 for a gym membership and I haven't been in months. it's a 24 hour gym so there are no reasons nor excuses that fly. it's all on my inability to motivate me, so it's time that tim grabbed those gorram bootstraps and yanked em HARD! I really do not like admitting I'm such a couch potato and bum but alas calling my own bullshit and getting it out there is a necessary part of 100% disclosure and that's what the purpose of this blog is to me, accountability. I LOVE the feedback I get and I am so touched and motivated by my followers and commenters but 1st and foremost it's about me and my journey. I've seen too many I followed regain and fall by the wayside out of embarrassment at admitting a regain or simply bein too depressed to make the effort. if nothing else my long term goals of blogging every day and posting an artist of the day on fb for a year have shown I can make myself do it even when there are days it's the last thing I want to do and I do the bare minimum to just say I did it. that's ok as long as I did it it's a win! I started on jan 1st and we're into the middle of November so that's nearly 11 months of daily activity..............now I need to exercise my body as diligently as that! I'm not gonna lie and say i'll exercise 7 days a wekk cause that would be a lie (at this point) but I am saying that starting wed. (payday I don't have enough gas to get there right now) I'm going to the gym at least 4 times a week. in the meantime I'm gonna get off here and do the Goddess workout right now, and then later some yoga.
lolol I'm feelin pretty good about everything right now so I think that old adage of striking while the iron is hot should be applied.
and I'm pretty certain that it's a blacksmithing quote and not a laundry one! lol
Strike while the iron is hot
Meaning
Act decisively and take your opportunities when they arise.
Origin
This old proverb clearly alludes to the imagery of the blacksmith or farrier at his forge. If he delays in shaping the iron when it is hot a pliable the metal soon cools and hardens and the opportunity is lost.
The expression is recorded in Richard Edwards', The excellent comedie of two the moste faithfullest freendes, Damon and Pithias, circa 1566
I haue plied the Haruest, and stroke when the Yron was hotte.
WHAT THE FORK................WHAT DID YOU THINK I MEANT? BWAHAHAHAHAHAHA
MY BLOW UP OF YESTERDAY APPARENTLY BLEW ALL MY STAGNANT ENERGY AND APTHY TO SMITHEREENS BECAUSE I FEEL ENERGIZED AND READY TO TAKE ON THE WORLD (LITERALLY!)
I GUESS BEIN SUBTLE AND PC JUST AINT ME, NEVER WAS NEVER WILL BE. SO TRYING TO FOCUS ON THE POSITIVE AND IGNORING THE NEGATIVE INSTEAD OF CALLING A SPADE A spade was a mistake on so many levels.................
and this is something we all need to do!
and yep I think this is probably close to me, Bette always was a fave!
and now I know what to do, the time has come I will be in ONEDERALND by Jan 1st by golly. it's only seven pounds time to shut up and put up!
I found my missing pedometer and I got 16732 steps today cause work was BUSY!
that might just do it! lolol
and of course some yummy eye candy to inspire us all!
GRRRRRRRRRRRRR!~ I am getting grumpier in my dotage apparently. I just got into an argument about kmart of all flippin things. over them being open on thanksgiving someone is whining about having to work instead of bein with their family. well boo hoo, you don't work the whole flippin day and you get double time. if you were home you wouldn't be together anyway, the women go to one end of the house and the men do the football nonsense. how about be thankful you have a job, and I'm sick of this living wage crap people whine about, live within your means if you have cable and/or smoke then shut the hell up. adjust your priorities to meet your income and if you cant afford them stop having kids. nobody said life was fair but the reason americans are having such a hard time is we're lazy and have unrealistic expectations. yes out grandparents owned land and a house but a 1000ft home was a mansion back then. and whole families lived together to pool their resources and work for the greater good of all. now we want 4500 sq ft houses and a car for every person and a phone and a tv in every room etc etc which is fine you should be able to buy what you want with your hard earned cash. but don't bemoan your wage when many have no job. no one forced you top accept a position for what you earned it was your choice affected by whether you stayed in school and did your best or not (also your choice) so like everything else in life you make your bed then you have to lie in it.
not even sure why kmart is bein singled out for this assanine whine, ALL retail stores routinely make employees work at least a short shift on the holiday to be fair. I actually volunteer because I like the holiday pay as do most people working for a living. shoot I work at a c-store and I cant take the vacation I earned between thanksgiving and new years eve ( mine starts jan 1 lol) of course I'd like to make more and I deserve more but when many retail businesses are failing they have to do anything they can to stay afloat. if people didn't shop on holidays then stores wouldn't open simple economics so do something about things you can and if you don't wanna shop thanksgiving stay home or write the company but all this poor pitiful employees crap drives me mad. I suppose I should just get it all out, I have tried for years to not judge people and hold them to my standards but I've decided that I am better than lots of folks and they can go to hell and stay away from me. I HATE alcoholics and I wont tolerate them any longer so if you're drinking keep your besotted ass at home off the roads and do NOT expect me to be nice to you..............same goes for drugs and yes I include pot in that. it makes you STUPID and if you weren't bombed you'd realize how damn dumb you're behaving. starring off into space and not bein able to have a normal conversation is not cute nor funny!
hmmmm lets see who else can I piss off this morning? how about people on EBT that abuse it, I wish there was a button I could push and flag the account when people but $64 worth of candy/soda for all their friends, and why are the majority of people bringing cards in between 18 and 25? they don't work they deal drugs because after they use their ebt card they pull out wads of cash and buy cigarettes...............the stated purpose of food stamps is to help families eat healthy. so why are soda, candy, chips, energy drinks and such allowed. they need to be used at grocery stores only and NO JUNK FOOD , SODA< or CANDY!
and lemme just send my ill will out into the world I hope all of you horrid asshats get hiccups and hehmroids! (at the same time!) for all the normal wonderful folks in the world I wish you bright blessings and a marvelous weekend!
lololol end of rant (till the next one!)
NOT digging this cold snap, my knee hurts and the heat kills my nose it's all dried out................and yes i'll take some cheese with my whine! lolol
other than that doin ok I got sick and tired of not sleeping so I've taken Benadryl the last two days and knocked myself unconscious.
doin fine with the food and exercise just keepin on keppin on. y'all have a GREAT weekend now ya hear!
I gotta give a BIG ole shout out to my girl Dana Leigh Lynn. I've been havin a poopy week and feelin low and I just got an outta nowhere care package. now y'all know timmy LOVES presents and surprises. candle, blanket (perfect timing for this cold snap!) lollipops, chapstick, a bell, and the coolest steampunk watch on a cord I've ever seen. I LOVE LOVE LOVE it and more than that I LOVE you for thinking of me and bein my friend. it's been a lotta years we've known each other girl give yourself a BIG hug from me and thank you ever so for brightening my day and forcing me to smile! xoxoxo
sometimes the simplest act can make such an impact I think it's good to remember that and I shall pay it forward!
mayhaps I'm just exhausted or mayhaps I'm getting sick either way my energy is VERY low. I'm doubling up on airborne and garlic and I'm gonna take some benadryl to knock me out so I can get plenty of rest as my sleep has been cattywampus as of late.
I'm exhausted and simply have nothing to say so here's some NUM NUM NUM eye candy from my daily fb pics!
goofy= HOT and paul rudd IS!
the late great Kevin Smith, I was DEVESTATED when he passed.
jesse pavelaka
johnny galecki
Jason behr
greg evigan
david tenant
david muir
and the sweetest sexiest candy of all!
just checkin to see if y'all are payin attention! BWAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
Well, I've run through rainbows and castles of candy I cried a river of tears from the pain I try to dance with what life has to hand me My partner's been pleasure, my partner's been pain
There are days when I swear I could fly like an eagle And dark desperate hours that nobody sees My arms stretched triumphant on top of the mountain And my head in my hands, down on my knees
Sometimes it's a bitch, sometimes it's a breeze Sometimes love's blind and sometimes it sees Sometimes it's roses and sometimes it's weeds Sometimes it's a bitch, sometimes it's a breeze
I've reached in darkness and come out with treasure I've laid down with love and I woke up with lies What's it all worth only the heart can measure It's not what's in the mirror but what's left inside
Sometimes it's a bitch, sometimes it's a breeze Sometimes love's blind and sometimes it sees Sometimes it's roses and sometimes it's weeds Sometimes it's a bitch, sometimes it's a breeze
You gotta take it as it comes Sometimes it don't come easy
I've run through rainbows and castles of candy And I've cried a river of tears from the pain I tried to dance with what life had to hand me And if I could, I'd do it all over again
Sometimes it's a bitch, sometimes it's a breeze Sometimes love's blind and sometimes it sees Sometimes it's roses and sometimes it's weeds Sometimes it's a bitch, sometimes it's a breeze
Sometimes the picture just ain't what it seems You get what you want but it's not what you need Sometimes it's a bitch, sometimes it's a breeze Well, it's a breeze, it's a breeze, it's a breeze
BIG sigh, unfortunately the enlightened idiot is me. I've spent deacdes trying to become a more spiritual selfless person and I missed the boat so completely on some really basic stuff. I cant simply disassociate myself from my past and pretend I'm someone different from who I am. that's putting on airs (not a good thing) I guess I always looked down upon the place I sprang from and goodness knows I ran as far away as I could as soon as I could.
having seen only the narrow Christian view and borne the brunt of its disapproval as a child I have made it my lifes work to explore and incorporate other belief into my life. everything from native American to Hinduism and all in between I embrace. I have done sweat lodges, firewalks, guided meditations, past life regressions, soul retrival. shamanic journeying, vision quests, cleanses, fasts, edgar Cayce, harner, villiolodo, ted Andrews, Sylvia browne, john Edward, and everyone and anyone else you can think of. I'm a Reiki Master, certified herbalist, directional healer, artist, poet, blah blah blah.................yet I didn't see the truth of where I started and the things happeneinmg right in front of me. I even got angry when my sister tried to point out6 some very basic truths that I guess I hadn't wanted to see or acknowledge.
my sister and I have had a really strained distant relationship most of our lives. neither of us are to blame it's from circumstance and evil adult intervention. that bein said we wasted much of our adult lives hiding behind anger and blame but now we're working on it and trying to come to some middle ground where we can just be siblings without all our past garbage. I never thought she loved me and honestly thought she felt she was better than me and hated me for being gay...we had misinformation handed us at every turn by those who should have been looking out for us. I can gladly say we're closer now than we have ever been and we're starting to sort out the nightmare that was our youth. I have had this thing periodically where my throat just totally seizes up for no reason, there is nothing medically and nothing allergy wise to cause it. well my sister had no esophagus when she was born and she had to have one fabricated from her small intestine. it has left her with some serious issues including horrible acid reflux and no ability to throw up (she literally can NOT!) for all my airy fairy knowledge it never occurred to me before that I was getting her distress because I didn't think we had a connection of spirit at all. so stupid. it seems so obvious once it clicked but when I'm clueless I'm TOTALLY clueless.
I guess sometimes we see what we want to see now matter how obvious the truth is..............
I'm gonna just lay it out in all it's unholy glory for y'all...yesterday was BAD. I was in full blown panic because there is/was nothing I can do. I cant even look at my sister and "see" if she's ok since I'm thousands of miles away. (I'm in DE she's in AL) I KNEW that my eating was gonna be awful and I was actually ok with that, because I felt it was better to just let it happen and control it as best as possible than to allow it to build up.and be a BINGEFEST for days on end. my appetite tends to be like a stampede when I turn to food for comfort/love. totally out of control and dangerous to anyone in my way!
I started craving my southern comfort foods....pecan pie 1st and foremost. the plan was to buy one of those small tins to trick myself into being satisfied and move on to lesser evil foods for the bulk of the blowout, well of course wally redid the section and got rid of the small ones and it HAD to be pecan no other options so yep I bought a whole pecan pie. then I wanted pulled pork bbq sandwiches with dill pickles, they have tubs but they're HUGE and I didn't want that much temptation in front of me. luckily when I was roaming around I found a can of bbq pork (size of the large can of chicken breast $2.18 size) so I bought that instead (enough for 4 sand on a hamburger bun)
I got home and got all my food ready and guess what it wound u NOT bein that bad. I ate 3 pork sandwiches (small buns, tiny!) and one slice of pie and I was stuffed. and I stopped. mayhaps 4 hours alter I felt another attack coming on and I fixed 2 hot dogs with cheese, I ate mayhaps 1/3 of one and tossed the bread/cheese and simply ate the wieners. then I had a handful of peanuts and that was that.
to some this may sound like a huge amount of food but rest assured in the scheme of my life this was negligible! apparently my months "maintaining" and eating by instinct have transformed me more than I could have hoped.
today the problem is still there and I'm still terrified but I have no desire to turn to food for comfort. it doesn't control me I control me!
I heard from my sister last night and I must admit I'm scared..............she has cancer in her neck. they already removed it once and didn't get it all. she starts the chemo pills next week and is having a 2nd procedure. I had no clue because she didn't tell me til now. we've had a strained relationship over the years so now I'm just freaking out. we finally start to make a relationship happen and then THIS!
it doesn't help that I'm an orphan and I lost an aunt and grandmother to cancer. it runs in both sides of my family.....gonna just breathe and try to remain calm. please add my sister to your prayers! thank you all so much!
I will admit diet dew is my addiction.........I have stopped drinking soda for up to 6 months and drank water every day , I felt bad, I didn't lose a single pound (I gained) and I didn't enjoy my liquid intake. so I made the conscious choice to drink soda knowing the consequences and after researching the possible side affects. I understand that it may not be for everyone but it's working for me so far.....
NOT TOO SHABBY FOR 46! (I was 17 in the above shot!
