YES! YES! YES! ...............LOVE this quote!
had a decent night it was very slow at work and since I was all alone on a sat for 5 hours that's a really GOOD thing!
had an odd tummy thing yesterday I didn't eat anything out of the ordinary but about halfway thru lunch my tummy started to gurgle (audibly) and roll and to the point I stopped eating and then it seemed to swell up like a ballon and everything went to gas. it's happened before but not to this extent and I don't know why? I didn't eat anything out of the ordinary. I was eating a bologna sandwich and cheese puffs when it happened...for the day I ate:
said sandwich and puffs
totinos pizza ($1 size)
chicken tenders
fried wieners
biscuit
reese cup
so I didn't even eat that much, but feelin fine today, who knows.
and now for my hypocrisy ........................
I ate:
puff corn
spicy chicken sandwich with swiss and bacon
spaghetti
pizza
chicken tenders
reese cup
today was NOT a real food kinda day! LMAO
but a good day none the less, y'all have a GREAT one catch ya in the am!
UGH! I don't want any negativity shared with me please and thank you kindly. I'm gonna say this and be damned with who it tweaks! I AM SICK TO DEATH OF POLICE/SOILDER BASHING! 99.9 % OF THE SO CALLED VIDEOS ARE EDITED TO NOT SHOW WHAT THE PERP DID TO START IT, AND FIRING TEAR GAS ON PEACEFUL PROTESTERS..............THAT BLOCKED STREETS FOR 3 DAYS, ABOUT TIME! I WAS IN FLORIDA WHEN THE CRAZY CUBANS BLOCKED HALF THE CITY FOR 6 MONTHS OVER ELIAN GONZALES. ANY OTHER CITY IN AMERICA THE NATIONAL GAURD WOULD HAVE BEEN THERE IN 3 DAYS MAX. THE LAW WAS THE LAW (wet foot dry foot) SO IT WASNT A MORAL DILEMA. HIS DAD WANTS HIM BACK HE WAS PICKED UP AT SEA HE GOES BACK. SIMPLE............THEN WHEN THEY FINALLY RESUCED HIM FROM THE MOB THEY PLASTERED PICS OF THE POLICE "BRUTALIZING" THE FAIMLY BY HOLDING A GUN ON THEM....EXCEPT THEY WERE PHYICALLY BLOCKING THE POLICE AND WHEN THEY TOOK THE BOY THEY WERE THROWIN G ROCKS/FURNITURE/GARBAGE CANS AND ANYTHING ELSE THEY COULD HURL AT THE VAN CARRYING THE CHILD. DIDNT APPEAR TO ME THEY CARED A WHIT ABOUT HIS SAFETY JUST THEIR POLITICAL CLOUT.
AND THERE ARE NUMEROUS FALSE POSTS (check snopes y'all) THAT PEOPLE REPOST ALL THE TIME. THAT NOT MY BABY BULLSHIT YOUR POOR BABY WITH THE DRUGS AND WEAPON WHO BROKE THE LAW AND RESISTED ARREST, THAT BABY? TEACH YOUR CHILDREN TO RESPECT THE POLICE IF YOU GET PULLED OVER FOR SOMETHING YOU DIDNT DO BECAUSE YOU DRIVE A SIMILAR CAR OR ARE IN THE VICINITY OF A CRIME CO-OPERATE WITH THE POLICE ALL THAT I'M A CONSTITUTIONAL SCHOLAR WHILE DRUNK OR JUST DECIDING TO ARGUE TO ARGUE STUFF NEEDS TO STOP.............YOU DESERVE TO GET POPPED FOR RESISTING ARREST IF YOU REFUSE TO TELL THE POLICE YOUR NAME SHOW AND ID AND EXPLAIN YOURSELF. WHETHER YOU KNOW IT OR NOT A LOT OF FREEDOMS WERE TAKEN AFTER 911 AND ALL Y'ALL PATRIOTIC FLAG WAVES WERE ON THE BANDWAGON I TOLD EVERYONE THAT IT WAS A HORRIBLE THING BUT NO ONE WANTED TO HEAR IT SO Y'ALL GOT YOUR WISH NOW SHUT UP AND LIVE WITH IT IN PEACE...............OH AND BY THE BY IF YOU DONT VOTE THEN SHUT THE FUCK UP YOU HAVE GIVEN AWAY YOUR RIGHT TO AN OPINION!
(fyi not all Cubans are crazy so it's NOT a racial statement, those people were nuts, many had been here 30years and refused to learn English or obey our laws. if I move to france I'm gonna speak French etc etc)
end of tirade and I feel better now but I believe this 100%, I also believe people should care enough to be a parent and discipline your kid when they misbehave you aint supposed to be a friend till they get grown and on their own. bust their asses, ground them, make then do community service, unplug the tv/computer and don't give a 6 year old a blasted phone or credit card (are you stoned?) and if that sweet little darling looks at you and drops the Fbomb, wash their mouth out with soap or use castor oil, if they're a teen smack em in the mouth. I don't believe it's child abuse to use coprporal punishment and I wish it was back in the school system. these are the rules I had to obey and guess what I NEVER had any of that done to me after about 4 because I KNEW better. nobody likes to hear this but raising a kid is like training a dog reward and punishment and you need to be consistent.
if you raise kids to honor teachers/police/elders you wont have these instances happening all the time.
well I'm sure I've pissed off the vast majority of people but I admit I'm the most conservative liberal you'll ever meet. I see no reason why any person not convicted of a felony shouldn't be allowed to own a gun but no reason why you shouldn't have to pass a background check and i'll take it further you should be required to PASS a gun safety course to register ANY weapon!
I also think peoples bedrooms are none of anyone damn business so as long as you're both consentual adults everyone else can piss off.
marriage is a man made LEGAL construct it has nothing to do with the bible so keep your religion out of it, and out of other peoples reproductive systems. I'm an pro-choice legally if anti-abortion morally. I have no right to decide anothers choice and neither does anyone else.
I also think the rich should pay a fair share of taxes and that churches should too. they make BILLIONS and use it to sway policy so they need to pay their fair share.
hmmmm what else can I say to rile up the bloggerverse? lolol
I know I have zero sympathy for people who commit suicide, I myself survived an attempt and I bootstrapped it , no meds, no nothing I pulled my head out of my ass and dealt. I pity the people who die thru no fault of their own and get no sympathy at all. you never hear anything about when cops or soldiers pass anymore....except when westboro pickets the funerals. I was kinda appalled that robin Williams is still headline news and an icon like lauren bacall who changed the way women were portrayed in film FOREVER barely rated a blip. my personal opinions based on my life experience, it's my truth yours mayhaps diametrically opposes mine and that's fine. no one has to agree with me but I refuse to keep hearing this anti-establishment shit all the time. if the country isn't what you want it to be, vote, help change the laws, sue the police if your rights are violated, volunteer, start/sign petitions. be pro-active if you're not willing to do that then stop whining! and FYI I DO volunteer, I DO vote, I DO sign/circulate petitions, and yes I DO protest legally with a permit not as a mob out of control on a street!
so onto food LMAO!
1/4 beef dog (1 with bun 1 without)
garlic chips 1/2 bag
reese cup
steak biscuit
gravy
pepperoni
triscuits
chicken breast
I'm feelin befuddled at the moment my whole week went sideways yesterday. my tarot class got cancelled for last night, my readings for Friday had to be cancelled due to shop repairs, and then my monthly tarot group moved our meeting date (already confirmed for the 17th) to the 24th which is pagan pride and i'll be doing readings all day so I cant go. looks like I have nothing to do (except work) the rest of the week..............oh and of course my asst mgr. is furious with me, we had a stumble on the schedule and all they needed to do was add someone on wed night who wasn't scheduled but she didn't want to give him more hours so she rearranged 3 other peoples schedule instead and wanted me to work sunday.(n\my availability is tues-sat) I said NO, she said why and I said "bcause it's a doorway once I cross that threshold once you'll be asking me all the time so NO." and that should be the end of it but the other folks who got screwed in the shift blame me too. cest le vie! sometimes standing your ground isn't gonna be popular.
then this morning I have a message on fb saying that picture bothers me can you take it down..............WTF? but no description of said image or link to it. I don't even have anything naughty posted at the moment. no clue at all lmao such is life at casa de timothy aka the crazy-house!
on a sad note the legendary lauren bacall passed which leaves only a handful of icons of the silver screen left, at least she's back with Bogie!
I found these square neck tanks online and I LOVE them, it's way more skin and way tighter than I EVER wear, but something I need to get over so here it is!
food:
chicken tenders (5)
potato wedges (5 tiny ones)
corn puffs
kk donut (2)
chicken breast
American cheese
deluxe grahmns (4)
I'm really in a vile mood and I'm not sure why, every tiny thing that never bothers me is making me INSANE. I really need to punch something (someone? ) till it/they feel as bad as I do. and I was in a GREAT mood until yesterday morning. there's nothing particularly wrong to set me off this way..........so gonna have to just buck up, suck it up and keep moving.
foodwise:
hot dogs (2)
handful of puffcorn
chili
American cheese
reese cups (2)
mayhaps I just need to eat something and take an aleve, my neck is stiff and my fingers are achy.
ok gonna try to do this again now that I'm calming myself down!
I decided that I need to be more focused and have an end-game goal. so we're going for 185, that's 22 pounds and I want to get there by Halloween. that's 12 weeks so I need to lose slightly less than 2 pounds a week. it seems doable, and not unrealistic. so why not before, what's different now. I don't know it just "IS". I know I need to focus on those 3 Rs, rest, rejuvenation, and results . so that's the plan as it stands.
I stuck to atkins and lost my 80+ pounds and I've kept it off. my weight for the past couple of years averaged around 222 but I've been 209 for months now and this week I dropped to 207 so my portion control eating till I feel full seems to be working. goodness knows I don't know how because I'm not gonna lie when I eat I can EAT huge portions, but I guess I'm doin something right.
my main focus needs to be on moving my ass and doing something physical because I tend to be quite lazy and I enjoy being lazy. about the only exercises I enjoy are bellydance and yoga with the occasional sweatin to the oldies thrown in. I have a gym membership that I haven't used in months, and I NEED to get back into that. even if I do 3 miles on the treadmill every day that's way more than I'm doin now! plus I'm payin for the gosh darn thing and that's just wasteful/stupid!
I feel slightly feverish and that could be part of my moodiness, my temp actually runs low (96.8) so I have to be careful 100 is BAD!
i have a class from 6pm to 8pm tonight I'm taking in the art and magic of the tarot so i guess i need to get to bed early and get some extra rest so I'm gonna settle in a watch a couple of episodes of csi....i started rewatching from the beginning a last month and I'm up to season 6 now. kinda like visiting old friends you haven't seen in years! lol
SCREW BLOGGER! it keeps deleting my Fing post over and over, oh if you look behind yesterdays you can see half of it, if you're a csi and you can separate screens. nothing should be this difficult or frustrating , I blog to vent and to connect with others but blogger is nothing but a problem which frustrates me and makes me wanna eat a whole damn pie as of late and I don't even like pie!
alas my opinions are informed even if sharing them is ill advised...........I am not a horse I do not follow the herd mentality. I'm the wise old sage out in front trying to navigate a safe path with common sense and instinct as my guides. ...so try to remember my "view" may be different than yours and I shall do the same for y'all. it's ok to disagree, it's fine to agree to disagree, but browbeating, yelling, or shoving the can get a swift kick from a back-hoof to the face! lol
Just try....
it sucks to pour your heart/gut out only to have it obliterated by blogger, and this is not the 1st time, I wanna cry AND eat at this point so I gotta go and do some deep breathing!
as for my intake and output intake was ok output was nonexistent and definitely an area I need to be consistent with so I'm going to start adding my activity along with my food daily, and feel free to question me if I fail to do so, y'all are my cheerleaders and my conscience! lol
chili
oatmeal pie
pizza 2 slices and the toppings off a 3rd.
hamburger helper lasagna
bologna
chicken breast
ham
shrimp salad (shrimp, mayo, dill relish, mustard)
I think mayhaps I need to integrate all the parts of my life instead of compartmentalizing them so in that note here are my links! https://www.facebook.com/timothylmartin https://www.facebook.com/TimothysTarot?ref_type=bookmark https://www.facebook.com/fattofitandfabulous?ref_type=bookmark https://www.fas for my intake and output intake was ok output was nonexistent and definitely an area I need to be consistent with so I'm going to start adding my activity along with my food daily, and feel free to question me if I fail to do so, y'all are my cheerleaders and my conscience! lolchili
oatmeal pie
pizza 2 slices and the toppings off a 3rd.
hamburger helper lasagna
bologna
chicken breast
ham
shrimp salad (shrimp, mayo, dill relish, mustard)
I think mayhaps I need to integrate all the parts of my
acebook.com/TheTarotTalk?ref_type=bookmark
and my metaphysical blog here on blogger http://vwtnfairymusings.blogspot.com/
if you need me quickly for support/help/cheer/asskicking try leaving a message on fb at the timothylmartin link I check it regularly
bright blessings for a wonderful week, see y'all tomorrow!
sometimes, most times as of late I LOATHE blogger and today is one of those I wrote a long hearfelt and I think eloquent blog about integration and following your own path and it published the top half and put this part the bottom half UNDER yesterdays blog. so I copied it all and dleted it to repost and I saved the bottom half which was the blah portion. I'm too irritated and mayhaps defeated to even attempt a recreation at this point, and I still cant post pictures or video I have to copy and paste honestly if I hadn't committed to posting every day for a year and I wasn't so far in I'd just drop it altogether and go somewhere with less issues.... BIG sigh! I always say if you're on the right path things fall into place naturally and easily and that aint happening here, and of course help is a joke!
so whats a proper blog, I feel like sometimes I'm doin a mini blog and I don't have anything to really say so I post anyway as something is better than nothing and I did commit and have blogged every day so far this year! so am I shortchanging y'all/myself by NOT having a beautifully written insightful blog with graphs, pictures, and videos galore or is going with my "gut" and making my priorities other real world things a jip?
lets just figure that one out shall we.................
proper
adj.adjective
Characterized by appropriateness or suitability; fitting.
Strictly following rules or conventions, especially in social behavior; seemly.
aproperlady;apropergentleman.
Belonging to one; own.
restoredtohispropershapebythemagician.
Characteristically belonging to the being or thing in question; peculiar.
anopticaleffectpropertofluids.
Being within the strictly limited sense, as of a term designating something.
thetownproper, excludingthesuburbs.
For use in the liturgy of a particular feast or season of the year.
Of or relating to a subset of a given set when the set has at least one element not in the subset.
Worthy of the name; true.
wantedaproperdinner,notjustasnack.
Out-and-out; thorough.
aproperwhipping.
adv.adverb
Thoroughly.
beattheeggsgoodandproper.
n.noun
The parts of the liturgy that vary according to the particular feast or season of the year
hmmmm mayhaps it's proper and mayhaps it's not.....................
are the pink fuzzy handcuffs "proper" handcuffs if they can restrain you but you enjoy it?
or do you need to NOT enjoy it for a "proper" restraint? lol
feelin a bit kooky and that's ok I'm going with the flow as usual.
foodwise been fair to middlin:
reese cup
1/4 pound beef hot dog (2, sans bun)
chicken breast
ham
Cheetos (handful)
5 coconut dream cookies
chili
not nearly as hungry or obsessed with food as I used to be and surprisingly when I've given myself permission to eat "whatever I want and as much as I want" it's just kinda blah.
don't get me wrong I still enjoy eating and occasionally carve something but not in the amounts or extremes I used to.
my Achilles heel is my workouts, I just cant seem to force myself to go as I KNOW I should.....but I'm not throwing in the towel completely! so eventually i'll get to where I need to be, until then something is better than nothing, so gonna show some inspiring pics!
I must admit I do watch the other people on the treadmill and I TRY to keep up their pace, but this one 70ish looking oriental lady runs 6.5 MPH for an HOUR! omg! lol
this one actually made me stop and think, why do we crucify ourselves over weight, whether people like us, etc etc etc..............it aint worth ity'all and we should all get down off those self-made crosses somebody might need the wood!
a great song and lyric by tori amos comes to mind.......
Every finger in the room was pointing at me, I wanna spit
In their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring
I got a bowling ball in my stomach, I got a desert in my mouth
Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now
I've been looking for a savior in these dirty streets
Looking for a savior beneath these dirty sheets
I've been raising up my hands drive another nail in
Just what God needs one more victim
Why do we crucify ourselves?
Everyday I crucify myself
And nothing I do is good enough for you
I crucify myself
Everyday I crucify myself
And my heart is sick of being
I said, "My heart is sick of being in
Chains, chains"
Got a kick for a dog begging for love
I gotta I have my suffering so that I can have my cross
I know a cat named Easter, he says, "Will you ever learn
You're just an empty cage girl if you kill the bird"
I've been looking for a savior in these dirty streets
Looking for a savior beneath these dirty sheets
I've been raising up my hands, drive another nail in
Got enough guilt to start my own religion
Why do we crucify ourselves?
Every day I crucify myself
And nothing I do is good enough for you
Crucify myself
Every day I crucify myself
And my heart is sick of being
I said, "My heart is sick of being in
Chains, chains"
Please save me, I cry
Looking for a savior in these dirty streets
Looking for a savior beneath these dirty sheets
I've been raising up my hands, drive another nail in
Where're those Angels when you need them?
Why do we crucify ourselves?
Every day I crucify myself
And nothing I do is good enough for you
Crucify myself
Every day I crucify myself
And my heart is sick of being
I said, "My heart is sick of being in
Chains, chains"
Why do we crucify ourselves?
Why do we crucify ourselves?
Why do we crucify ourselves?
Why do we crucify ourselves?
Why do we crucify ourselves?
Why do we crucify ourselves?
Every day
well gosh darn it not anymore, I deserve to be happy and guilt free so that's how I live my life..............do good and be good and let all others expectations and judgments go!
had a good night happy with my progress and it's all good. foodwise I ate:
pizza (4 slices)
reese cup
chili
Cheetos (handful)
Vienna sausage
pretzel crisps
this was just too funny so I had to share!
and this is just EPIC!
and always be Betty!
and last but certainly not least.........................
TIMMY'S BACK! lol
ya know I use mayhaps a LOT, mayhaps I will mayhaps I wont, mayhaps you is, mayhaps you aint, mayhaps i'll be thin ......................oh no fuck that I WILL! lmao
feelin kinda silly and pretty darn good after a nice long sleep!
feelin pretty optimnistic ...........ok I got up and ran to weigh cause Lori reminded me I hadn't in a while. eating hit and miss and by instinct I have lost 2 pounds down to 207, so YEAH ME! lol
other than that lots of good life lesson progress and I'm positive about the future. it feels like a nice place to be!
well I feel "even" today no crazy emotional spikes or horrible cravings, and that's a really good thing! I was way too busy to really eat much but I didn't get hungry another good thing!
I ate:
chicken tenders
reese cup
steak biscuit
sausage biscuit
banana
pork steak
all in all not too bad volume wise if still a bit carb heavy but it'll come into focus asap!
todays busy but not crazy I have a reading at noon then work at 10pm so i'll get close to a normal amount of sleep to make up for the three hour nap and the 1 hour nap I got yesterday! lol
well I promised I'd let y'all know if my warmly remembered chef boyaredee pizza kit lived up to expectations..................it was a failure of EPIC proportions! I ended up waiting till that evening to fix it and I followed the directions. I ALWAYS used a cookie sheet because I like thin/crispy crusts. I did everything according to the directions and it smelled and looked so gosh darn yummy. (the kit makes 2) I had the first one in the oven and I prepared the 2nd one but alas when I took out the NON-stick cookie sheet you'd have thought used spray glue on the gal darned thing. even with a sharp edged spatula it wouldn't budge or give a damn inch. so I scraped some pepperoni and about a tablespoon of sauce off of it and that was that......I was soooooooooooooo damn mad it was really kinda scary I just slammed it down on the counter and went to my room because I couldn't even speak. it was all I could do not to throw the damn thing thru the picture window. I had to do some serious deep breathing and just let it go and along with it another memory that I shant try to recapture again. BIG sigh , I don't have too many things that I look fondly on from that era of my life and honestly most of the ones I do revolve around food. I had no life I lived in my world of books just to make it through. so another one bites the dust! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rY0WxgSXdEE at least the theme song has a great beat! lol https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rY0WxgSXdEE
this is soooooooooooooooooooo the truth!
so enough of my whining, I had a GREAT reading with Michael Brazell
Soul Empowerment Reading: Soul Empowerment Consultations are geared towards helping you stand in presence and power. During these sessions we open up to deep soul contact and open to healing energy transmissions. We can focus on various areas of your life experience, but the goal is to help you live a more present and spiritually focused life. I ask that you approach these sessions with an open heart and an open mind. These are not conventional psychic readings. We will engage in soul dialog, meditate, open to healing, and build a plan to help move you into deeper soul contact. I ask that you approach with an open mind and open heart............
he's super intuitive and a great guy to boot so if you need a reading/consultation I HIGHLY recommend him! tell him I sent you! https://www.facebook.com/mbrazell
on the food end of it....................
chicken tenders
biscuits (yes I appeased my anger with carbs!)
oatmeal cake (little Debbie)
ham steak
sour cream and onion chips (handful)
that's it I was too busy at work to eat anything and I/m opting for sleep over food this morning .............I KNOW WTF right????!!!! lolol
a lot of my hanging on to stuff and the need to let go was covered in the reading so I'm very much at peace with understanding I don't need to relive the actuality to enjoy the memory and that the food memories aren't really about the food they're about the comfort I got and that's what I actually remember...................except my grandmas blackberry cobbler that one IS about the flavor cause it was soooooo good you're tongue would wanna slap your face! lol
If you’ve taken part in Friend Makin’ Mondays before then you are familiar with the rules. If you’re new, please take a moment to answer this week’s question on your own blog then add your link in the comments section here so we can all see your FMM questions and answers. Please invite your blog readers to add their links here too so everyone has to opportunity to be seen. The idea is to connect with other awesome bloggers so take a moment to read and comment on a couple of other posts.
This week’s topic is ‘Veggies’ (following on from last week’s fruity topic) 1. What is your favorite vegetable?
potatoes unfortunately! 2. Is there a vegetable that you really really don’t like?
I LOATHE onions, peppers, corn, mushrooms, and olives! 3. Do you drink vegetable juices? If so what flavors?
about twice a year i'll crave tomato juice 4. Potatoes – do you count them as a vegetable serving?
when I eat them of course they are a vegetable, I would not however count tomatoes as they are a fruit! 5. How many portions of vegetables do you eat a day?
mayhaps 1 mayhaps none I am a carnivore 6. if you were making a smoothie would you add vegetables?
I don't do smoothies but I would NOT do a veggie one! 7. Are you allergic to any vegetables?
not the vegetable its self but corn stalks will tear me up! 8. Do you have a favorite vegetable recipe? Feel free to share the recipe with us.
fried green tomatoes and nobody does it better than paula!
9. Do you grow any veggies in your garden?
no lie I cant stand 98% of vegetable so havin a garden is pointless
Now it’s your turn to answer the questions. Don’t forget to come back here and leave a link to your post in the comments, so we can check out everyone’s answers.
I am heading on vacation this week, celebrating our 10th wedding anniversary, so there will be no FMM next week (sorry), but it will be back the week after.
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I feel like I've been walkin the line between on-plan and the apocalypse! some days I do/feel great and others I don't. then there are those numb days when I just cant/wont/don't think about anything at all. I have more of those than I care to admit. my focus just isn't on health right now, I guess because I'm just not focused at all. which is a BIG issue and I KNOW I'm the only one who can do anything about it.....so time to take my own advice and fake it til I make it. yep that's right tell myself I'm fine/act like I'm fine and live the lie till it becomes the gorram truth!
so for food I ate:
taco salad in a shell
fig newtons
Italian sausage
chili
lays stax chips
and I'm fixin to eat a pizza. when I was a kid (around 10ish) I used to save all my lunch money instead of eating and on weekends I'd walk to the country store a mile or so from the house and but a chef boyardee pizza kit all for myself . (this was long before good frozen pizza and no one delivered since there were no pizza places) and it crossed my mind, now I haven't had one of those in over 30 years but it got stuck and by gum it still is so I checked and they do still make them so I'm gonna fix one up and see if the memory is better than the reality! lolol it's usually NOT so i'll let y'all know on tomorrows post!
as for today I have taken the day off from both jobs. yep that's right no cashiering or readings today. I actually was chosen by the fabulous Michael Brazell for a free reading and it's today at 2pm. since I started reading professionally I simply haven't had the time or inclination to seek out a reader so this was a delightful surprise! it's also one I haven't done before so hopefully it will help me figure out where my head/heart disconnect is! https://www.facebook.com/mbrazell?fref=ufi
1) Soul Empowerment Reading: Soul Empowerment Consultations are geared towards helping you stand in presence and power. During these sessions we open up to deep soul... contact and open to healing energy transmissions. We can focus on various areas of your life experience, but the goal is to help you live a more present and spiritually focused life. I ask that you approach these sessions with an open heart and an open mind. These are not conventional psychic readings. We will engage in soul dialog, meditate, open to healing, and build a plan to help move you into deeper soul contact. I ask that you approach with an open mind and open heart. if y'all haven't checked Michael out then do it NOW! he was on The Tarot Talk Itv Show on Paraencounters Network and it was fantastic!
I did one of those silly who do you look like apps and got bernedict cumberbatch
not sure I see a resemblance? what do y'all think?
A Mom's Kids Exposed What She 'Really' Looks Like, And Her Reaction Is PERFECT.
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Flipping through the pictures on my phone, I see it.
My first reaction is shock. Who took this hideous picture of me?
Self-loathing and disgust swell up and threaten to bring me to tears.
Just as I am about to hit delete, my boy walks in the room.
“Do you know anything about this picture?” I ask him.
I turn the screen so he can see it. He smiles huge.
“I took that of you in Tahoe,” he says. “You looked so beautiful laying there. I couldn’t help it mom.”
“You need to ask me before using my phone to take pictures,” I say.
“I know,” he says. “But mom, seriously, look how pretty you look?”
I look at the picture again and try to see what he sees.
My daughter walks over and takes a look.
“That could be a postcard mom,” she says smiling. “Your so beautiful. I love it.”
I take a deep breath.
This is exactly what I needed.
My default mode is to see and focus on the flaws and imperfections. I’m starting to see a bit more.
I still see my dimply, fat thighs.
I also see a mom collapsed on the shore that just explored the lake for hours with her children.
I still see chubby arms.
I also see the arms of a mom that just helped her kids across the rocks and hot sand so their feet wouldn’t hurt.
I still see a fat woman wearing a black dress bathing suit to try to hide her weight issue.
I also see an adventurous mom that loves her children something fierce.
Like many women, I have struggled with my weight most of my life. It’s not something that will ever go away for me. I don’t have a naturally slim body. Never have.
Right now I’m the heaviest I’ve been in 10 years. Yet…
I have not let my weight stop me this time. I am wearing tank tops, sundresses and bathing suits in public. I’m running around playing with my kids this summer and I sometimes even feel attractive.
Yes. You heard me.
“I feel pretty. Oh so pretty. I feel pretty, and witty and bright.”
Well…not exactly. But something like that.
Is it because I’m getting older? Is it that I have more to worry about than just how I look? Or maybe it’s because my kids look at me with such adoring eyes.
Really, it doesn’t matter.
I don’t hate my body anymore.
That’s huge for me to admit and hard to even wrap my mind around.
I’m not giving up on exercising and getting healthy. Those are things I will continue to strive for because I want to be around awhile.
Right now though, I just want to love my body where it is. I want it to be OK to see myself the way my kids do.
Thank you kids.
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well I said I liked bein busy cause it kept me out of trouble and apparently the universe thought I was heading into a LOT of trouble because I'm INSANELY busy this week! lmao and sleep............what's that?
I think I'm doin ok, and dealin ok.............when I'm sure y'all will be the first to know! lol
food wise I did pretty well:
ham steak
American cheese
Cheetos (handful)
peanuts
bbq skins
didn't really eat much way too busy to stop, mayhaps that should be my new diet.............
the F it I aint got time plan! lolol
the pedometer went wonky again so no clue as to the actual steps but the way the dogs are barking I'd safely say I put in my steps and then some!
I think I
ve lost my mind agreeing to get a kitty as busy as I get but I'm gonna trust my instinct and spirit and say it'll be fine. gonna find out later today a timeline and all the details . I have readings later so I'm taking my behind to nappy-time (thats' sleepy-time NOT dirty diapers for my European friends! lol)
SO WHAT IS NORMAL? NORMAL FOR ME? FOR Y'ALL? I HAVE NARY A CLUE BUT AS FAR AS I'M CONCERNED AS LONG AS YOU ARENT A CANNIBAL OR HURTING KIDS AND IT'S CONSCENTUAL I DONT GIVE A HOOT WHAT ANYONE DOES! LOL
of course in the broader sense I don't want my normal to be aft and lazy, I want healthy, active and happy to be the normal I strive to achive and I'm soooooo much closer than I used to be. I actually ordered some cool tank tops and am planning on wearing one to a pagan festival at the end of august. now for me that's HUGE. I don't wear tanks in public, part of that is I was raised it's not seemly and part is I feel like a beached whale when I wear smaller revealing clothes. I still normally wear 2X tees when an xl fits fine because I just don't like to feel "on display" howver I have forced myself to start wearing tighter clothes when I venture out and that's a GOOD THING!
lmao .................
on the food front I am having an allowed day and NOT stressing about it!
hamburger helper
garlic bread
snickers
buffalo blue kettle chips
coconut dreams
Cheetos
that's all for now will have more to post tomorrow!
so this is a pseudo-blog or as we'd call it down south a lick and a promise! lol
super busy working both jobs today but lovin it!
ate pretty well:
peanuts
steak
sausage
scrambled eggs
chicken breast
bacon, lots of bacon! lol
my pedometer decided to work (it's still in my pockets even though it's been broken) and I got 10,418 steps
y'all have yourselves a GREAT day now , ya hear!
and now for my hypocrisy ........................
free eye candy! 
