judgement

so is my judgement impared or just my metabolism? despite eating pretty darn good my "uptick" continues. my body just doesn't respond well to steroids (other than my eye lol) and I KNEW I was retaining fluids cause I feel bloated and my feet are swollen, now I'm 213 that's 6 friggin pounds. I am NOT happy but the good news is I go back to the eye dr today and expect to be taken off the meds.
I know drastic measures may be required to kickstart my metabolism and shed these extra pounds. it's amazing how fat a few pounds can make me feel. UGH!
so my goal of onederland by jan 1st is NOT happening, I KNEW I shouldn't have said it out loud and jinxed myself, the universe does seem to have a warped sense of humor at times.

FACEPLANT! I'VE ALSO SEEN EM TAKE THE ELEVATOR TO THE 2ND FLOOR TO GET ON THE STAIRMASTER!

almost

well I ALMOST forgot to blog, not forgot really simply didn't have time this mornin and only now got around to my lick and a promise post..............but it IS a post and it counts cause I said so! lol

"food" for thought

so how about some food for thought for the person with attention span deficit disorder................





goes for gals and guys!








my greatest fear!

AFTER...................

well it's the day AFTER Christmas and I survived, one more week till two wonderful things happen.
1.i shall fulfill my pledge to blog every single day for a year
2.i begin my vaca jan 1st!
of course my plans have crashed and burned with my illness, I haven't got the actual bill yet but the hospital sent me a statement my bill is $6254.00............OUCH! of course my insurance will pay some but alas this was my 1st dr visit this year so there's that $3000.00 deductible .that's not even taking into affect the eye dr and I still have another visit to him on the 29th. and they think I'm gonna follow up with another dr, no way I cant till I pay this off. so a staycation it shall be, i'll catch up on some reading and mayhaps some of my shows and get into the gym a few times. now that I KNOW what the issue is there are lots of holistic ways of treating it and I do feel much better. my pain is at a manageable level and my energy/mood is actually just great.
the bummer is my taxes which I was gonna use to replace my laptop are now a moot point as it'll all go to medical.
at the moment I have LITERALLY .41 cents in my banl and 1/4 tank of gas, I have 2 more days to work then I'm off so it'll be close but i'll make it. don't feel too bad I have plenty of food but a 14 hour check just didn't stretch far enough. I had to but extra groceries cause I wound up with a "surprise" teenager who wound up not going to Disney with everyone else.
I had a lovely lunch for Christmas with a friend, peggy, and her roomie. turkey, ham, mashed potatoes with gravy and 3 yes 3 dinner rolls. I don't feel guilty at all and more importantly as busy as I was at work physically I'm sure I burned off plenty of extra calories. then at work I had 3 of those peanutbutter kiss cookies but I actually pulled the kiss off and just ate the cookie. lolol

giggle!

BWAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

MERRY CHRISTMAS Y'ALL!

MERRY CHRISTMAS Y'ALL, HOPE YOU HAVE A WONDERFUL DAY FILLED WITH LOVE, LIGHT, AND LAUGHTER (and mayhaps some loot!)







of course it's always that darn timmy! BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

happy..................

not arguing about it just be happy!

blinders

my eating went to hell, I ate a candy bar, 2 slices of garlic bread, town house crackers, and raisins.................over the course of  day so not too too much as far as mass but carb-wise it is pretty awful. I simply ran out of food and to be honest with all my medical and missed work I have 16 cents to my name so I ate what I had. my check hits tonight so i'll be ok.............sorta. this check is for 14 hours with $30 insurance off the top, and of course my gym membership for $19.99.oh well it's only for a week and i'll make it. mayhaps a good time to fast for a few days! lolol
on the good side I'm sooooooooooo close to that blogging every single day for a year goal..........it's been rough! on the other hand I'm also so damn close to time bein up to be in onedrland in 2014. bein on meds seems to have ground my metabolism to a standstill or even gasp the dreaded uptick.
my emotions seem to be on a roller coaster of highs and lows but I'm hangin in , I think I just gotta go in "work horse" mode and put on my blinders and just get it done.

aftermath

well I was kinda bad at the Christmas dinner, I had 4 cookies and 5 ritz crackers and I ate a single slice of pizza tonight. so not horrible just naughty.............which brings me to this! lolol

but it all turned out ok , I showed him how naughty I could be! lol
I really like my presents , I got 2 Elvira tshirts (sadly they oopsed and sent a ladies so I can only wear one not sure if it's returnable)

a 2015 calendar

and an Elvira throw which I wanted VERY badly!

I also got some news that threw me for a bit of a loop, I think it'll be a good thing but big changes are frightfully hard as I get older. luckily it was a heads up so I have some time to ponder/prepare.

christmas early

well with all my illness and missed work financially it's tight.
I'm fine and I have enough to live on but alas I'm 3 presents short and as everyone but me leaves tomorrow for Disney for a week we're doin presents today. BIG sigh , so I feel shitty , it's one adult and the two extra kids I didn't get, it was gonna be gift cards but they aint free. unfortunately it'll be VERY obvious as they aren't exchanging presents the trip IS the family present. cest le vie nothing to do but deal with it.
we're having a brunch, bacon and eggs for me thank you no carbs, and we have a couple of meat and cheese trays for later in the day so no one has to cook today. still getting better every day so all is well. tapering off on the steroid drops for me eye, down to thrice a day now and I go back on the 29th.
y'all know I am NOT anti-Christian but people with this horrid judgemental no happy holidays it's merry Christmas rants need to check themselves cause they're gonna wreck themselves. I saw this and it's something to consider, as to me going by Jesus's teachings as I understand them, everything that was before is wiped clean and all he said was to love and be good to one another!

eating or shopping?

so I'm past craving carbs at this point. completely loving the low carb existence, so why do I keep falling back? well i'll be honest it' a time consuming and expensive way of eating. for example a $2.98 bag of salad and $1.00 bacon bits will last me two days (plus dressing) but for that same money I could get 10 packs of ramen and 2 boxes of garlic bread which would last me 5 days. that's the cheapest meal for both ways of eating I could think of to be honest. if you start buying meat and fresh produce it's ridiculous how much it costs. I just have to reprioritize my spending cause honestly I'd rather eat cheap and go shopping! (there are Elvira Mistress of the Dark products I don't have!)
and i'll be honest I bought food this week and lots of it but I also dropped a few items off my list so I could order an Elvira throw (first one ever and it was a knots scary farm exclusive)

I got the wallet last week and I want the blasted hoodie too! but alas with a 14 hour check this week with insurance and a gym membership coming out that aint happening!
I also need the calander for 2015, and about 1/2 dozen tshirts.
I have a whole bookcase full of Elvira memorabilia and some of it worth quite a lot.and rare....beer, wine, dvds, cds, lps, dolls, perfume, watches, beanies, steins, plates, glasses, bags, posters, autographed photos, soda, halloween lights, model cars, hot wheels, books, comics, pc games, bobble heads, jewelry, clocks, tin signs, lightswitch covers, trading cards, I even have checks and a checkbook cover! not to mention shoes and shirts. yep I do love me some Elvira and it makes me happy to have it and I deserve to be happy. I don't drink or do drugs I collect marvelously macabre mistress merch! lol

















that just a sample! lololol obsessed much?