damn! diana ross

well damn damn double damn. I screwed up and fell blah, cest le vie cant take it back now. I let the time constraints of yesterday get to me and now I'm paying for it. I didn't have any of my "safe" food with me or prepared and I didn't have time to eat in between work and doing readings and errands and I hit the wendys drive thr, now I could have gotten a salad or something but I on auto-pilot ordered a baconator and fries.( I gave the fries away) I at least got the bottled water with it, but wait no it don't stop there. I got 1 4 hour nap then had to work again, it was too busy to eat anything and I went thru the drive-thru at hardees and got not 1 not 2 not 3 but 4 steak biscuits, why because they were 2 for $3. because I'm an asshat who was operating on fumes and cravings and NOT thiking. I KNOW better and now I feel bloated and lethargic and so damn fuzzy around the edges mentally and guess what I have another reading in an hour and 45 minutes so I cant nap. it's time to suck it up buttercup and I will. but this blog and my commitment to me is full disclosure. I'm not sugar coating anything (sugar=poison) in any aspect of journey. so no pity party no ice cream while watching Richard simmons (been there done that) but hey just so the iront isn't lost on y'all I will admit I ate my junk while watching the finale of biggest loser because I didn't have time to watch it Tuesday. so I had my nutty professor moment and now it's done. shake it off and let it go and move on. I can tell you I WILL be at the gym tonight as I'm off work and I've decided to do another 5k in march. that gives me a month to get back in walking shape. so I gotta see where I actually am on the treadmill at this point. I did it in 54 minutes last time so I want to shave at least 4 minutes form that.
today is gonna be another kinda busy one. I have a reading then I need to go to khols, the comic book store, the mall, the grocery store, the post office, and start working on my journal pages for my friends (my group the crows nest as sharing artistic pages with each other so I need to do 14 pages and mail them all over the world, FUN!) this is what happens when I get scheduled 5 days instead of the 4 I want and my off days are separated. I NEVER get caught up on anything (including sleep) oh and I need to talk to dave (my artist) about my next tattoo..........I had a dream last night and my arm was covered in death. now to me death went straight to the shamanic visions I had. my healing totem the bear seems to have no patience with my nonsense so he routinely dismembers me in my quests so I can be reborn into a more perfect channel for healing. so I'm seeing a huge bear head and a human skull with the bears paw on top of it, and a rose somewhere in the background. now it's daves job to take my jumbled goofy ideas and turn them into glorious reality. I mean I said stars, owl, books, and I got this

this new one is gonna be on my right upper arm, the added problem for dave is  I have a tribal piece already so it's gotta be a cover-up too. he's a genius but this ones gonna be tricky. I'm bettin at least 7 hours or more.
you know I gotta tell ya I feel better and more focused already just by getting it out there. for me (and many others I suspect) those hidden binges bring a lot of guilt and shame along with them but I'm done with that. I'm human so I'm not perfect but at least I can admit it without feeling like a big loser and move on. I'm gonna take my anger'irritation with me and use it to fuel the fire I'm lighting under my ass at the gym today! no poor pitiful martyr here, not building a cross to hang myself on habitat for humanity needs the wood far more than I!
here is a list of all the upcoming 5ks in y area the ones for dover I want to do with mayhaps a few more if they're close (I have to check as I don't know where some of these towns are)

Senators for a Cure 5K for Diabetes 5K run	Dover, DE Kent	listing info
8	Mar 8, 2014 Saturday	Trail Creek Series - Granogue 10K trail run, 5K trail run	Wilmington, DE New Castle	listing info
9	Mar 9, 2014 Sunday	Lucky Leprechaun 5K run	Milton, DE Sussex	listing info
10	Mar 15, 2014 Saturday	Leprechaun Leap 5K run	Wilmington, DE New Castle	listing info
11	Mar 15, 2014 Saturday	Shamrock Scramble 5K 5K run	Dover, DE Kent	listing info
12	Mar 15, 2014 Saturday	Shamrock Shuffle 15K & 5K 15K run, 5K run	Rehoboth Beach, DE Sussex	listing info
13	Mar 16, 2014 Sunday	Kids4Kids Run 5K run, 5K walk	Bear, DE New Castle	listing info
14	Mar 23, 2014 Sunday	Caesar Rodney Half Marathon and 5K 13.1M run, 5K run, 5K walk	Wilmington, DE New Castle	listing info
15	Mar 29, 2014 Saturday	Cherry Blossom 5K 5K run	Wilmington, DE New Castle	listing info
16	Mar 29, 2014 Saturday	Mustang 5K 5K run	Wilmington, DE New Castle	listing info
17	Mar 30, 2014 Sunday	April Fools Day Adventure Run adventure race	Lewes, DE Sussex	listing info
18	Mar 30, 2014 Sunday	Healthy Kids Running Series - Newark, DE kids run	Newark, DE New Castle	listing info
19	Mar 30, 2014 Sunday	Healthy Kids Running Series - Wilmington, DE 1M run, kids run	Wilmington, DE New Castle	listing info
20	Apr 5, 2014 Saturday	Cougars for a Cause: MJ3'S 5K 5K run	Dover, DE Kent	listing info
21	Apr 5, 2014 Saturday	* old info * Miles for Mentors 5K 5K run	Middletown, DE New Castle	listing info
22	Apr 5, 2014 Saturday	Race Judicata 5K run	Wilmington, DE New Castle	listing info
23	Apr 6, 2014 Sunday	Healthy Kids Running Series Spring - Middletown, DE kids run

 basically I could do one every Saturday possibly. but I would need to take off Friday nights to do it and that might be an issue so we shall see.
 

ARTIST OF TODAY : THE BOSS (no NOT that one< the REAL ONE!) DIANA ROSS:

 

a bsuy day! and tori

today is gonna be BUSY! I worked last night I have readings all day today , my book I have been DYING to get came in, I need to hit the comic book store and go make a payment to the ER (I have $125 of the $125 so YEAH!)  add blogging and posting on my to pages on fb and I need 8 arms and 36 hours! lolol so this is gonna be a real quick post!
I ate:
chicken salad
bbq skins
peanut butter
steak
chicken Caesar salad
hot dog
I got in 11114 steps
not a sip of water just 2 quarts of crystal light

lolol
ARTIST OF THE DAY: TORI AMOS

 

hangin in and adam ant

I'm feelin blah the winter blues are tryin to get me but I'm fighting it as best I can. everyone in my house has been sick but so far my immune boosting efforts have paid off and I'm ok. gonna keep working the issue and crossing my fingers I escape the bug!
I ate :
chicken salad
Caesar salad
vinegar and salt pork skins (a failed experiment they're NOT good! lol)
egg salad
sunflower seeds
Caesar salad with bacon
bbq skins
 I did 30 minutes of yoga stretches
 I've been putting quite a bit of work/thought into my facebook weight loss page so be sure to check it out it's a much more minute to minute view of my day............
https://www.facebook.com/fattofitandfabulous?ref=hl

 

ARTIST OF THE DAY: ADAM ANT

such a quirky lil thing but for a minute there he was all the rage and I thought he was adorable (what was I thinking? lol)

 

weigh-day/dead or alive

well it was my official weigh-day and I'm happy to report a loss for the week, oh it's small but i'll take it! I'm at 123.5 which is down a half pound, considering 2 days ago I was up a pound this makes me happy. I understand the reasons I didn't post a BIG loss as I should have. I was 100% on plan no deviations but alas after I hit 40 my metabolism isn't what it used to be iwas mostly sedentary and my water consumption was way down too. so UP the movement, UP the water intake, and stay on plan will surely equal a big loss this week!

it's absolutely completely on me and I shall absolutely take care of it (and me!)

I ate:

chicken salad

Caesar salad with bacon

bbq skins

fried wieners

cheese omelet

hamburger

tsp peanut butter

I drank no water and only about 1 1/2 quarts of crystal light.

 

I hear ginger is good for you, looking at him I'd like to test that theory! YUMM!

ARTIST OF THE DAY: DEAD OR ALIVE:

 

 

a good day and liza

well had a good day on plan and feelin pretty gosh darn good too! not letting that lil ole bump bother me and still hopin I show a loss on the scales when I wake up tonight.
I ate:
bbq skins
Caesar salad
string cheese
sunflower seeds
turkey burgers
chicken breast
boiled eggs
I got in 13417 steps and I did 20 minutes of yoga

I GOT CAUGHT UP ON THE BIGGEST LOSER AND I'M NOT SURE WHO I WANT TO WIN ALL THREE ARE ACTUALLY DESERVING AND I CAN SAY THIS SEASON THE ONLY ONE I COULDNT STAND WAS RUBEN.

ARTIST OF THE DAY: LIZA MINELLI:

 

a "bump"

well I broke one of my own rules and it bit me in the ass emotionally. I NEVER weigh except on my weigh in, I think weighing everyday is crazy and it would drive me insane because I know the body fluctuates. my problem is I don't have a scale in my bathroom and Donny has been sick and going to bed early before I wake up at night so I didn't get to do my regular weigh in on sunday. he was feelin better and had went out last night so I decided to weigh and see where I was at fully expecting a loss, but oh no I got a WTF one pound bump! UGH! now I know I didn't drink enough yesterday and I was sedentary so I understand it's probably just water weight I haven't flushed out but still it made me MAD! not mad enough to be bad or go off plan but mad enough to get off my ass and do something about it. my gym bag is packed when I get off work in the morning I'm heading straight to the gym which is around the corner from my job.
I ate:
turkey burgers
Caesar salad with bacon bits
pepperoni
chicken breast
bbq pork skins
deviled eggs
I walked 11,123 steps.

ARTIST OF THE DAY: DONNA SUMMER:

 

rest and shakira

I had a nice day of rest it was literally 1 degree outside so I wasn't going anywhere I didn't have to. I made a trek to get crickets and froze my ass so going al the way across town to the gym was out! I did do some stretching and hot nude yoga so it wasn't a total bust.
I ate:
Caesar salad (2)
bbq skins
chicken salad
hot dog
boiled egg
string cheese
I really wasn't too hungry so I didn't eat that much. I'm still in ketosis so I'm happy with my progress this week.

hows this for inspiration she turns 60 feb 2nd! WOW!

and this last one la tortura is the sexiest video I've EVER seen!

a new group and bee gees

hey y'all I decided I needed an active group of people and lots of folks to motivate me and that I may motivate so I started a facebook page for health/weight-loss it's called  FAT TO FIT and fabulous!
https://www.facebook.com/fattofitandfabulous so drop on by and send everyone SERIOUS my way. I used to belong to a group and they frustrated me to no end. they were always talking about how they wanted/needed/had to lose weight but out of 30+ folks 4 usually participated. I don't wont that and I'm not gonna tolerate it. I know it's everyones own journey but I'm not gonna waste my time bein a cheerleader for a bench-warmer! if that's judgemental oh well I say it CLEARLY in the group description. I love the blog but it really is a once a day thing and I sometimes just have little ns victories or insights I'd like to share more consistently. and yeah like I have time to add to my plate (as long as it non-caloric what the hell! lol)
for some reason the biggest loser lost me early on this season. I couldn't stand ruben (still cant) and I just stopped watching after faithfully watching since season 1. well today with my new fired goals and drive I decided to multi=task while doing other projects and I have been catching up it's better than I thought and Bob came out FINALLY, I KNEW he was on my team! now if he'd just shave he's too damn pretty for the beard and that 70s stache is driving me nuts! lmao

this is one of my fave pictures of mwah......................

and this is todays eye-candy, fat free delisciousness! YUMMY!

lets see oh yeah I got 13,126 steps (I keep forgetting to post this)
I ate:
chicken Caesar salad
bbq skins
hot dog
hamburger
chicken salad
peanut butter (1tsp)
scrambled eggs
beef hot dog
my water consumption has been off this week I only got 16oz but I drank 2 1/2 quarts of crystal light tea.

ARTIST OF THE DAY: BEE GEES:

 

inspirational crap and chili peppers

not a lot to say it snowed another 6 bloody inches here overnight and I got to drive home in it, YIPPIE! lolol I'd like to have all kinds of wonderful stuff to say but today i'll just post this!

I ate:
egg salad
chicken Caesar salad
hamburger
hot dog
 bbq pork skins
chicken breast
tsp peanut butter
 

ARTIST OF THE DAY: RED HOT CHILI  PEPPERS:
my fave funk band and Anthony is one of the hottest men EVER

 

whew and the B52s

whew that was close I dodged a bullet yesterday and I KNOW it! but this aint horse-shoes so close doesn't count I stayed on plan and that's that! I am still in deepest ketosis and feelin pretty gosh darn good today.my eating has been filling and more important fulfilling I really do enjoy the low carb life. I ate.............
Caesar salad with tuna
chicken salad
bbq skins
ham and cheese
bologna and cheese
Caesar salad
it seems repetitious and not too varied but I like it like that I always tend to eat a very narrow palate no matter how I eat..............
I do want chicken wings though I haven't had real wings since I moved here ( 8 years ago) thinking of trying buffalo wild wings but I have to check on their sauces, cause most buffalo sauce is sugar free so it's allowed.

gonna try this we shall see...............................

ARTIST OF THE DAY: THE B52S:
one of my fave fun groups who will forever and always be associated in my mind with my friend Bobby who passed, I KNOW everytime I hear them he's dancing and singing right along with me!

and y'all check out the chick in the white jump suit with the fro, yep it's Rupaul!