the blues and cyn

I woke up this morning and really just wanted to stay in bed and I'm off so I could have but as I lay there it dawned on me I just felt blah and I REFUSE to let those wintertime blues settle into a depression that could unrail me. I'm gonna say anytime you feel depression trying to take hold do something, anything rather than let it. so I got my ass up I shaved and showered (being unkempt is a sure sign of depression) I even conditioned my hair got dressed and went out into the living room o be around other people. I decided to catch up on some of my shows so I grabbed those bootstraps HARD and I did something about it and felt better and lighter. it's a combination of things, my health has always been good and these petty issues I've had are driving me crazy, financially I'm almost there but it's been a process, trying to get the tarot to be a moneymaker hasn't panned out because I'm only doin it at a shop. I need to either do it online or over the phone and neither appeals to me, then there's this blasted cold that I HATE. I grew up with cold like this but I was in sunny florida for 16 years and I LOVED it, I also have a tooth that needs pulled/fixed and while I have insurance I also have a big deductible and I still owe for the ER visit for my eye so I'm chewing on one side of my mouth and dealing with it for the time being , plus the backhanded unfriending I got from the "lady" I thought was a friend.now none of these on their own is a big deal but I guess    I oppsed and was
letting the stress accumulate and it snuck up on me. I don't really talk to anybody about all of this (my choice) so I guess today I'm venting so I can just let it out, acknowledge it and move on from here.
there's tons of GREAT things going on Feb 2nd the tarot talk is back and i'll be cohosting again
I'm also participating in two pay it forward groups which I'm looking so forward to and I'm in the planning stages of a vaca for my birthday at the end of may............and the 2 pounds I lost!
plus the guy I cant stand got voted off of top chef! lmao
this journey really is about staying motivated and just putting that one foot in front of the other every day, I'm very happy that I not only recognized the problem but that I took action and didn't let it take over. now I NEED to see/post some happy happy joy joy stuff!!!!

cant go wrong with giraffe kisses! xoxoxoxo

lmao

and speaking of Wonder Woman this is gale gardot the new WW in the batman vs superman movie. I have high hopes they don't muck it up!
 
ARTIST OF THE DAY: CYNDI LAUPER:
what an appropriate singer, cause hey timmy justs wants to have fun! (today!)

 

little to no patince and meagan mullally

well we all kno I have little to no patience so I decided to pitch the box springs and put the mattress on the floor to se  if that helped and it did I slept better. however (don't you HATE the howevers) now I have an occasional shooting pain in my side. I'm hoping I just strained something because another dr visit is NOT on my agenda!
otherwise pretty good/slow night and no other worries I'm off for 2 days and I sure do need it, hopefully I catch up on some r-n-r .
I am totally digging the way I'm eating ......
salmon steak
shrimp salad
bbq skins
Caesar salad with bacon bits
bologna
chicken salad
I'm TRYING to now shift away from beef and focus on seafood/chicken as my mainstays and I KNOW I wont have any before wed because I'm not gonna go shopping before then. my water consumption has been off for the last couple of days though still drinking tons of crystal light.
the cold is making my joints achy so I've been taking ibuprophen  which I don't like to do but is sometimes necessary, I need to get some white willow bark (natural asprin) and a couple of other herbs.

just for inspiration it's theo rossi aka juice my fave character on sons of anarchy!

 

the pure and simple truth we are all beautiful!

ARTIST OF THE DAY:MEAGAN MULLALLY:
best known as Karen from will and grace Meagan has a set of pipes, she does lots of musicals and has had 2 albums that are wonderful.

 

WEIGH DAY AND ELVIS

well lets just lay it out there I'm at 214 which is actually down 2 pounds (I had dropped to 211 when sick but went right back to 216 as soon as I was able to eat) so I'm pretty happy with that. my issue has been headaches this week I almost NEVER get a headache I think it's a combo of too much time online/playing games and my bed being shot. I'm not getting restful sleep. when I get my taxes back a bed is the first order of business but alas til then I just have to suck it up.
I've paid off the eye dr and I just owe $250 to the emergency room then I can start my upgrades. I also need a new tv I'm watching a 16 inch tv/dvd combo right now. plus I want a gaming chair and several dvd sets. yep yep yep timmy has a wish list I do I do I do! lolol

 

 

I think I'm gonna try out for Americas next top model I got the duck face and the smize down pat!

 

 

ARTIST OF THE DAY:ELVIS

 

a good day and ann margret

good morning y'all hope everyone had a great nights sleep I did (kinda) once again I have forgone the bed and slept on the floor it was just easier and I was too sleepy to make the move across the room. lolol of course I should have been awake overnight cause now I wont wanna sleep today and I have to work at 10pm.
this has nothing to do with me but so totally bums me out you just don't know............the captain and tenille are divorcing after 40 years together. apparently it's her idea and he doesn't know why, but they're still in the same house??? I thought love would keep them together, I mean they're in their 70s.

and of course they sing one of my all time favorite love songs that I find uber  romantic/sexy.

oh well I wish them both well and hope they're happy whatever road they follow.
back to me lol I ate well yesterday............
Caesar salad with bacon bits
chicken breast
hamburger
hot dogs
spam (bacon flavor) fried (the only way I can eat spam!)
bbq skins
a spoonful of peanut butter (my treat/snack)

AND IT IS TOO, I LOVE TO DANCE OUTSIDE TO THE SOUNDS OF NATURE...............NOT SO SURE ABOUT MY NEIGHBORS, BUT THEY DO LEAVE ME ALONE! BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

ARTIST OF THE DAY: ANN MARGRET:
one of the great all time entertainers, she can act, dance, and whilst singing may not be her strongest talent she gives 110% and add enough oomph and sex kitten to make anyone believe she is!

 

PAY IT FORWARD AND MELANIE

havin a good day and had a good night. and I am in KETOSIS the highest level WOO HOO! for those not used to the low carb wars ketosis is when your body has switched over to burning fat for fuel instead of food basically. I need to find an accurate scale and weigh in a day or two just to see where I'm at.
feelin pretty good mentally too, and irritated but not dwelling on why I let someone bother me at all (it didn't much except I hate being accused of being disrespectful, I'm a lot of things, brash, abrupt, disconcerting, but disrespectful aint one of em!) even if for only a moment.
it was a SLLLLLLLLOOOOOOOW night at work and I got so sleepy and then I came home and BOING wide awake. lololol cest le vie!
gonna have to go get my book today, lost lake by sarah Addison allen she's fabulous and writes these lovely charming magical southern novels. this will be her 5th book. I HIGHLY recommend her if you want to have a BIG ole smile on your face and in your heart when you're done.
I've become involved in 2 wonderful projects, one is on fb it's a gift thingy where the first five people to respond to my post get a gift from me of whatever (book, card, drawing, candy, etc etc) at a random time during the next year. then you're supposed to copy and paste it to pay it forward from your page. such a lovely idea.
the other is in a group I belong to we're (14 of us) each going to send a journal page we decorate , paint, prose, decoupage, sketch, etc etc with that person in mind to every person in the group that way you can simply put it in your journal and everyone will have 14 personal magical pages to start their journal. people from all over the world are in the group and they're all artists and such so I'm so looking forward to getting and receiving these.
I went to the grocery this morning and brought a list I did not deviate not even one item I have food on plan for the entire week. so no surprises for me, the better control I keep the better i'll do sticking to my plan and meeting my goals.
I ate.................
chicken Caesar salad
string cheese (1)
bbq skins
beef hot dog (2)
hamburger (2)
chicken salad
pickle
and I was completely satisfied and not missing the carbs at all!

LOLOL appropriate with the weather we're having!

ARTIST OF THE DAY: MELANIE SAFKA:

 

snow day and bette

well I'm not sure what the total accumulation was but we'd had about 4 inches at 4pm so I called out of work and got myself a snow day! I didn't do anything got into couch potato mode and started watching discover ID next thing I know I'm asleep half on my bean bag half on the floor and I've got the crick in my neck and arm to prove it. lol
enjoying my low carb eating but my portions are way too big, now on atkins that doesn't matter so much as long as I'm under on the carbs and I am but i'll get the portions there too in a couple of days. I'd rather eat too much of a good allowed thing than eat crap that's gonna derail me.
I had............
hamburger
beef hot dogs
chicken salad
bbq skins
boiled eggs
was out of salad fixings and with the snow a trip to the grocery was out of the question. I'm actually proud of myself for not binging and going off plan not gonna go into details but I was betrayed/attacked by someone I've done nothing to and when I tried to be the bigger person was told I'm self absorbed and disrespectful to others. WTF, now i'll tell you that hurt my feelings for about 2 seconds then I got ANGRY and my first instinct was to cuss em out ion ways they've never heard of but I did not and shall not do that. I cant control other peoples actions but I can and did control my reaction! I didn't let it cause me to binge or let in ruin my night I'm gonna let it go and let God. I did block them since they has no right to see my actions online and honestly doesn't deserve to see them as far as I'm concerned. enough of this dribble onto more fun/useful stuff! lol
a friend sent me this and I LOVE it! so much so it's my wallpaper on fb now.

it so fit the situation and just makes me giggle when I see it! I was also reminded to pay attention to my life philosophy and NOT let silly petty bullshit bother me. so here's that in case I never shared it before it's the best quote I ever heard by the late GREAT uber stylish Coco Chanel

I also saw this and just had to share it because it speaks to the beauty that is all of us! (I'm so enjoying my pictures bein back! lol)

ARTIST OF THE DAY: BETTE MIDLER:
a super talented singer/actress who knows all about making yourself fabulous. she believed it so much that the rest of us had no choice to to follow along!

 

headache and cher

well I awoke with a headache and it's a dilly. nothing seems to be working so I'm just gonna go to bed. otherwise I had a pretty good day, kept it to around 18 carbs.
I ate.....
cashews
chicken ceaser salad
chicken breast
beef hotdog
hamburger
bbq skins

ARTIST OF THE DAY: CHER
what more is there to say it's CHER!

 

a good day and blondie

well I had a most excellent day. food was good, met with friends and that was good and I avoided temptation which is GREAT! I belong to a tarot group that meets once a month and everyone brings food. sometimes it's lasagna, or hummus, or crackers etc etc. last night it was donuts, fruit platter, crackers, strawberries, chips, and such, I had planned ahead and had some almonds in my bag so I drank water and had a couple of pieces of cheese with my almonds and was perfectly fine with it no desire to cheat at all!
on the body front for those of you who have never tried low carb dieting your body definitely acts differently once you hit ketosis. see you body is using the actual food you eat as fuel as opposed to having a huge surplus so for me anyway I don't go potty very often mayhaps once every 2 days or so which I cant stand TMI ALERT!
I guess I'm used to going every day well part of my routine every night for the last 20 years has been an enema for me it's like regular cleanliness so that problem isn't a big hassle, it's better than the other way around cause for some folks the switch causes incontinence.this too will level in a few days to a week. the body really does go into a kind of shock when it begins to operate as it should have but our modern diet has the body so screwed up it just freaks out for a moment.
on the eating side for the rest of the day.............
hamburger
beef hot dogs
almonds/cheese
chicken breast
bbq skins
my palate seems a bit one dimensional but alas I am have and always shall be a BIG ole Carnivore. I hate most vegetables and the one I do eat I only eat in unhealthy versions. a salad or coleslaw are about the only healthy greens i'll eat and other stuff like celery and carrots just kill my tummy. I think it's my Viking and German lineage that's at play cause lord knows I've tried over the years to eat what others called healthy including a sting as a vegetarian that landed me on deaths door (the ER doc told me to start eating meat again that some people just cant do without it < a statement of my life experience NOT an invitation to tell me I'm wrong!>)  I'm gonna pick up lots of fish and shrimp on my grocery trip this week. there are some lovely flash frozen individually wrapped fish selections that will work well for me. I seldom do fresh because of the cost as well as the short shelf life.

the next step will then be to get my ass moving more. right now my side is still killing me and I still don't know why, there is no visible rash/injury it feels like the nerve endings are on fire and it hasn't spread. I've went through cortisone cream, lotions, etc etc. I started with a tincture of arnica this morning and we'll see what that does. I'm also gonna take some Benadryl just to help me sleep because rest is becoming an issue. I'm tired of these physical issues and I REFUSE to have anymore gosh darn it. I guess I cant complain too much since I'm 45 on no meds and in good health otherwise. at least in my mind I am for all I know I could be falling apart! LMAO I haven't had an actual MD or DRs visit since 1984!

here's a view of my chest piece which I'm in LOVE with, probably gonna add one more sittings worth I want to extend the space and add another planet or nebula over the books just to make it symetrical.

ARTIST OF THE DAY: BLONDIE:
one of the great punk bands of all time who are still making great music to this day. one of my all time faves!

 

wheres the beef

where's the beef? on my plate apparently! I seem to be in the throes of a cow craving because I simply cant get enough, but no worries Bessie is allowed on atkins! lol
 I do want to switch to a seafood based style of eating but am simply going with the cravings till I get a good week in on plan, then i'll tweak what I'm eating to better suit my needs.
today I had............
beef hot dogs
beef bologna
hamburger
peanuts
bbq pork skins
chicken breast
beef herky
chicken ceasar salad
sunflower seeds
starting to enjoy my food again and my tatse buds are FINALLY working properly!

ARTIST OF THE DAY: CULTURE CLUB:

 

ravenous and dottie!

rav·en·ous

/ˈrævənəs/ Show Spelled [rav-uh-nuhs] Show IPA

adjective

1.

extremely hungry; famished; voracious: feeling ravenous after a hard day's work.

2.

extremely rapacious: a ravenous jungle beast.

3.

intensely eager for gratification or satisfaction.

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Origin:
1350–1400; Middle English  < Old French ravineus,  equivalent to ravin ( er ) to raven²  + -eus -ous

Related forms

rav·en·ous·ly, adverb

rav·en·ous·ness, noun

Synonyms
1. greedy, starved, devouring. Ravenous, ravening, voracious suggest a greediness for food and usually intense hunger. Ravenous implies extreme hunger, or a famished condition: ravenous wild beasts. Ravening adds the idea of fierceness and savagery, especially as shown in a violent manner of acquiring food: ravening wolves. Voracious implies craving or eating a great deal of food: a voracious child; a voracious appetite.  It may also be used figuratively: a voracious reader. 2. predatory.

 

by any definition of the word I AM! lol and right on time I usually get that way when the ketosis is in the process of kicking in, but no worries I'm eating a bit more than normal but of the "right" on plan foods and not anywhere near my carb limit. I'm allowed 20 for induction and today so far I'm at 11 and pretty much done with eating cause i'll be goin to bed in a couple of hours (hopefully!)

I've  eaten

bbq pork skins (2 small bags)

chicken breast

pepperoni

string cheese (only 1)

a 1/4 pound beef hot dog (sans bun!)

I'm feelin good energetically and I finally got some "GOOD" sleep yesterday.

I didn't have time for the gym this week yet but I did 1/2 hour of yoga and I got 18438 steps in yesterday so I'm happy with that.

and YIPPIE blogger fixed it's self and allowed me to post this wonderful list of reasons to exercise!

 

ARTIST OF THE DAY: DOTTIE WEST:

she's pure country and no frills but I do love me some dottie!

 

 

another day la la la

doin pretty good and feelin ok. we're gonna  just hang tough and go with it. so far I'm stickin with it but the first two to three days are always a bit rough when you're switching the way you fuel your body. I;m an old pro at the carb wars so I understand this and shall be fine.


 well blogger still wont let me post pics and the browser is working fine on every other site so obviously it's a blogger issue. I copy and pasted this one but it wont change size as it usually does. I'm a VERY visual person and without pic and sound my inspiration wanes QUICKLY so this is not fun for me. I'm hoping this isn't what the rest of the year is gonna be like because it SUCKS! I know NOTHING about fixing issues and as I said I think it's blogger and not my computer because I'm posting pics video on many other sites (fb,twitter,yahoo)

better late than never

well better late than never for a restart and that's what today is gonna be. I have an appointment for areading at 11am so I gotta get a nap in and i'll hit the grocery store after that for some low carb goodies. got some good sleep so feelin more me today and that's a good thing! lol
 and of course blogger is still screwed up and wont let me post pics or videos which boils my blood even the tab is just a block and not the usual orange tab. don't know what the issue is or mayhaps it's only F'ing with me just to test my resolve to blog every day no matter what either way it is VERY annoying!