REFLECTIONS IN A MURKY STREAM

REFLECTIONS IN A MURKY STREAM
DISTORTED HAZY SCATTERED
IS THE WATER UNCLEAR
DO MY TEARS CLOUD THE IMAGE
GROTESQUE MIS-SHAPEN HORRIFYING
IS IT MY BODY OR MY BROKEN SPIRIT
REALITY BECOMING APPARENT
I DONT WANT TO SEE
IT WAS NEVER ME HE WANTED
IT WAS SECURITY A FREE RIDE
TAKEN IN BY A PRETTY FACE
A WILLING YOUNG BODY
SWAYED BY MY LOINS
BETRAYED BY MY MIND AND MY HEART
NOW I SEEM UNABLE TO DO THAT WHICH NEEDS DOING
CUT HIM LOSE TO SINK OR SWIM
THERES ALWAYS ANOTHER FOOL
HE'LL ALWAYS FIND SOMEONE VULNERABLE
SO WHY DO I HESITATE
WAITING FOR A MIRACLE
PRAYING FOR THAT WHICH SHALL NEVER BE
I LOVE IN VAIN HE DOES NOT LOVE
SO IS THE FOOL HIM OR IS THE FOOL ME?

FOUNDATION STRONG

MAMA LOVED ME FROM THE DAY I WAS BORN
HER PRIDE AND JOY THE MOON AT NIGHT AND THE SUN RISING IN THE MORN
SHE LOVED ME UNCONDITIONALLY WITH ALL HER HEART
SHE GAVE ME STRENGTH LOVE AND JOY SUCH A GREAT START
I NEVER FOR ONE MOMENT DOUBTED I WAS LOVED
THEN OUT OF NO WHERE SHE WAS SNATCHED FROM ABOVE
GOD TOOK HER AWAY AND LEFT A BOY SAD SCARED AND ALONE
HOW DO YOU COPE WHEN YOUR FOUNDATION IS GONE
I'M BLESSED AND SO LUCKY HER SPIRIT IS STILL AROUND
HER ENERGY STILL HERE HER MESSAGES ABOUND
A BOND TIME AND DEATH SIMPLY CANT AFFECT
IM STILL HER BABY AND LEMME TELL YA MY MAMA PROTECTS
CLOAKING ME IN HER WARM EMBRACE
WITH HER SPIRIT BESIDE ME THERES NOTHING I CANT FACE
SO TO YOU ALONE I MAY SEEM AND ALONE I MAY BE
THAT'S JUST REALITY I EXIST IN WORLDS YOU CAN NOT SEE
SO SHE'S STILL WITH ME MY FOUNDATIONS STANDING STRONG

TRUTH BE TOLD I HAVE NEVER BEEN ON MY OWN

IN THIS LIFE

SKIN OF BRONZE LEAN AND STRONG
HAIR BLACK AS NIGHT JUST STARTING TO FADE
STRONG NOSE NOBEL CARRAIGE
THE WARRIOR EPITOMOZED OLDER THAN TIME
YET AGELESS AND NEWER THAN DAWN
A STRANGER TO MY EYES UNKNOWN
YET I'M STIRRED TO THE DEPTHS OF MY SOUL
A CHANCE MEETING HELLO AND YOU'RE GONE
MEMORIES AWAKEN IN ME OVERTAKING MY SENSES
WASHING OVER ME IN TORRENTS AND GENTLE WAVES
I'M LEFT WITH NOTHING BUT A SMILE IN MY SOUL
NEVER TO SEE YOU AGAIN OR KNOW YOU IN THIS LIFETIME
STILL HAPPINESS ECHOES OVER ME SOOTHING BLISSFULL CALM
ONE BRIEF MOMENT EVERYTHING MADE RIGHT FOR ALL TIME

the bill

ignoring the warning signs following my bliss
its the obvious and awful i usually miss
now scrambling to do what must be done
overburdened and overwhelmed life no longer fun
no room to cry nothing to complain about
it's all my own fault of that there is no doubt
let my obligations slide till they're rollin down the hill
think i've waited too late now there's one hell of a bill
for my great folly seems i'll pay and pay
selling my tommorrows to pay back my yesterday
will i never learn abd be responsible for me
live the life i can affort and become debt-free