deaths sweet embrace

can pain kill me
i feel i'm dying
slowly life fading away
my heart isdead
will it stop beating
must i suffer forever
how the dead heart aches
like razors have ripped me
bleeding and raw i lay in my sorrow
longing for release
bitterness runs through my veins
swimmimg in an ocean of tears
a martyr for love
useless and wanting
a bitter cycle
over and over again
until deaths sweet embrace eases my pain

my sorrow

my reality your delusion
my truth your lie
my love is wasted
my heart is broken
my soul is barren
my loins are aching
my eyes burn with tears
my mind races with questions
my emptiness knows no boundries
my pain engulfs me
my sobs rock me
my sorrow overwhelms me
my life is wanting
my hope has faded
my mind knows the truth
my heart won't listen
my arms long to hold you
my lips long to kiss you
my soul longs to die
my one chance has gone by

why

why am i here
why am i alone
why won't he love me
why do i try
why is all hope gone
why does it hurt
why do i cry
why didn't i know
why is love a lie
why do i go on
why can't it stop
why wake up
why do hearts break
why do lips lie
why is he fickle
why do i care
why am i ugly
why does it matter
why....................................

blinded

shining like a beacon
his light cut through my darkness
the sunlight of his smile
warmed my cold soul
unable to stop
i basked in his glow
blinded by his beauty
i couldn't see the danger
now i'm drowning in torrents of tears
and the melting of my frozen heart
silver blood addictive
his laughter intoxicating
one smile and i was lost
his kiss captured my heart
now like smoke he's floating away
naked and freezing
i long for the fire of his love
forever looking o're the horizon
for the return of something
that was never there