WHO AM I

WHO AM I WHAT DO I SEEK
CRAWLING THROUGH LIFE MILD AND MEEK
ILLUSIONS OF STRENGTH HIDING TERROR
WHO'S THAT COWARD LOOKIN OUT THE MIRROR
TO BE ME BUT HOW DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT TO TRY
SMALL FALTERING STEPS INCHING FORWARD AS I CRY
CLAWING MY WAY BACK NAILS BLOODY AND BROKEN
MISTAKED MADE LESSONS LEARNED NONSENSE SPOKEN
DOUBT THRETENS TO OVERWHELMSTILL I STUMBLE ON
SPINE OF STEEL INSIDE THIS JELLYFISH MY WILL IS MY OWN
I WONT BREAK DOUBT AND DESPAIR SSHANT WIN
ONE OF THESE DAYS I'LL BE TIMMY AGAIN!

THIS IS RIGHT

A CHILD OF THE MOON AT HOME IN THE NIGHT
GIFTED FROM BIRTH WHY DO YOU FIGHT
DENY YOUR TRUE SELF RUN AWAY IN FRIGHT
THE GODDESS HAS BLESSED YOU WITH WORDS AND THE SIGHT
EMBRACE THE PATH DESTINY AT HAND SO DO AS YOU WILL
YET HARM NO ONE ELSE THE POWER IS REAL
SO NOW I MOVE FORWARD HEAD HELD HIGH
IT'S TIME TO STAND OTHERWISE I DIE
BLESS ME OH GODDESS AND GRANT ME YOUR LIGHT
FOR ONCE IN MY LIFE I KNOW THIS IS RIGHT
 

STOP

DAMN IT TO HELL FUCK PISS SHIT
I'M TIRED OF THIS TIME TO QUIT
STOP WHINING PINING AND CRYING
MOANING AND LAYING AROUND LIKE I'M DYING
SO LIFE'S UNFAIR YES TIS SO VERY TRUE
SO WHERE'S THE SURPRISEI MEAN ESPECIALLY FOR YOU
IT NEVER COMES EASY THERE WILL ALWAYS BE LOSS
LIFE'S JUST A RISKY GAMBLE A COIN THAT YOU TOSS
TIME TO YANK THOSE BOOTSTRAPS AND GET UP OFF MY ASS
NO TIME FOR SORROW EVEN IF YOUR HEARTBROKEN ALAS
SO PUT A SMILE ON MY FACE AND LIVE THE HAPPY LIE
LIVE IT UNTIL YOU BELIEVE IT AND IT SHALL BE BY AND BY
 

SOLITARY

SOLITARY SUCH A SAD PATHEITC WORD
APPARENTLY MY MOTTO HOW ABSOLUTLEY ABSURD
BEING ALONE ISNT NOBEL AND CERTAINLY NO FUN
IMAGINE THE SENSATION OB BEING THE ONLY ONE
WALK ALONE SLEEP ALONE DREAM ALONE
WHERE THE HELL HAS EVERYONE GONE
WHAT IS IT IN ME THAT PUSHES THEM BACK
FOR REPELLING PEOPLE I'VE GOT THE KNACK
WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME WHAT IS IT I LACK
WHERE HAVE Y'ALL GONE PLEASE PLEASE COME BACK
 

AGAIN

NOW COMES A QUESTION WHAT DO YOU FEEL
PAIN SADNESS BETRAYAL CAN THIS BE REAL
THE ANSWER AND TRUTH IS YOU LOVE ALONE
HE HAD NO HEART YOU SHOULD'VE KNOWN
HOW CAN LOVE BE MISERABLE PATHETIC AND SAD
HE'S NOT WORTH IT HAVE I GONE MAD
WEAPING AND MOANING PINING AWAY
WASTING MY TOMORROWS ON FALSE YESTERDAYS
SO I GAMBLED IT ALL LOOK WHAT I LOST
ROLLED THE DICE AND HAPPINESS WAS THE COST
IN THIS GAME OF LIFE YOU DONT ALWAYS WIN
SO HERE YOU GO LOSER LONELY AGAIN

FIRE

TO WALK THROUGH FIRE SUCH A GRAND THING
BURNING COALS OPEN A PORTAL ALLOWING SPIRITS TO SING
AND IF LOOKING WITHING A SEEKER MAY FIND
ANSWERS TO THE UNIVERSE OR THE QUESTIONS OF YOUR  MIND
USE CARE WHAT YOU LOOK FOR ANSWERS CAN BIND
CLARITY SOUGHT CLARITY GOT AND TWAS NOT TRULY KIND
WHAT A HORRID SHOCK ALL I KNEW AS REAL
DREAMS AND ILLUSIONS , DELUSIONS OH WHAT TO FEEL
I GOT WHAT I ASKED FOR NOW HERE'S THE DEAL
BRING ON THE HURT POUR ON THE PAIN
THIS STUFF IS FOR REAL

THIS SMILE

WHAT A STRANGE THING AWOKE WITH A SMILE
GOODNESS KNOWS IT'S BEEN QUITE A WHILE
PAIN IS STILL THERE BUT NOW I CAN SEE
THERE MIGHT BE HOPE EVEN FOR LIL OLE ME
STILL BEREFT AND ALONE YES TIS TRUE
YET I'LL BE OK EVEN TINGED IN BLUE
IT WAS A NICE LITTLE DREAM THAT LASTED BUT A WHILE
 NOW THROUGH THE TEARS COMES FORTH THIS BEAUTIFUL SMILE

 

THE BEAUTY IN THE DARKNESS

 

BREATHTAKING CREATURE AT HOME IN THE NIGHT
THE BEAUTY IN THE DARKNESS ECLIPSING ALL THE LIGHT
HAIR DARK AS RAVENS WINGS LIPS BLOOD RED AND FULL
VOICE OF A SIREN,CAN'T YOU FEEL THE PULL
BODY OF A GODDESS SURPASSES ALL THE REST
I'M SPEAKING OF ELVIRA ALTHOUGH I'M SURE YOU GUESSED
THE MISTRESS OF THE DARK WOMAN OF MY DREAMS
WHO ELSE COULD FILL THAT DRESS BURSTIN' AT THE SEAMS
ONLY SHE CAN ROCK THE DARKSIDE OUTPARTY ALL THE REST
SO WHEN YOU WANT A TASTE OF TERROR WHY NOT TRY THE BEST
SHE'LL USE YOU AND ABUSE YOU FOR A LITTLE FUN
ONCE YOU'VE CROSSED THE DARKSIDE YOU'LL FORGET ABOUT THE SUN

HOPE

COULD THERE BE HOPE CAN I SEE A LIGHT
SOMETRHING SHINING FAINTLY AT THE EDGE OF MY NIGHT
IT FLICKERS AND SPUTTERS REFUSING TO DIE
BANISHING MY SORRY SLOWLY BY AND BY
THOUGH I'M STILL HURT AND FELLIN RATHER GRIMM
ME-THINKS I'LL CARRY ON WITH THIS NEW WHIM
LOVES NEVER WRONG NEITHER GOOD NOR BAD A FLAME THAT IGNITES
A SPARK SHINING BRIGHTLY TO WARM THE LONG LONELY NIGHTS
IF THE HEART CHOSE WISELY WOULD THAT MAKE IT RIGHT
SO HE WON'T LOVE ME THAT DREAM BITES THE DUST
WORLDS NEVER END  I SHOULDA STUCK TO LUST
SORROW EVENTUALLY GIVES WAY SO I AM TOLD
LETS HOPE IT HAPPENS WHILE I'M STILL BOLD
 

'EVERMORE

WAS IT A GLAMOR A SLIGHT OF THE HAND
A SPELL OF LOVE OR MY SORRY FATE
EITHER WAY I'M FALLEN LOST BEREFT
WHAT ONCE BROUGHT ME JOY NOW BRING PAIN AND TEARS
FILLED WITH DESPAIR DRAGGED DOWN BY THE WEIGHT OF MY MISERY
WHAT SHOULD I DO WHERE CAN I GO
TRAPPED BY A LOVE I'M UNABLE TO SHOW
IN LOVE WITH SIR ASSHAT MASTER OF MY SOUL
HIS INDIFFERENCE SHROUDS ME IN GRIEF ANF DESPAIR
WHAT CAN YOU DO WHEN LOVE ISN'T THERE
SO I CARRY ON MUCH AS BEFORE
BROKEN HEART STILL BEATING AND ALONE 'EVERMORE

DOORMATS

DOORMATS CATCH ALL THE DIRT AND GRIME TO KEEP IT OUTSIDE
HOW MUCH EMPATHY I FEEL AS I SHAKE THE FOOTPRINTS FROM MY SPINE
NEVER SPEAK UP ALWAYS DO WHAT I CAN
WEARING MYSELF TO NOTHING I'LL STIL NEVR HAVE THAT MAN
LOVE IS BLIND AND I'M IT'S FOOL
WASTING TIME TEARS AND GRIEF ON SUCH A TOOL
SPINNING IN CIRCLES AROUND YOUR EMPTY ROOM
AS I FOLLOW YOU BLINDLY TO MY DOOM

THE WINDHORSE

RIDING WINDHORSES THROUGH THE DARK INTO THE LIGHT
AT HOME WITH ALL AS I TRAVEL INTO THE NIGHT
HOOFBEAT DRUMBEAT HEARTBEAT ONE AND THE SAME
RIDING BEASTS WILD AND FREE NO MORTAL COULD EVER TAME
THEIR THUNDER REVERBERATING THROUGH TIME AND SPACE
CARRYING ME TO A MAGICAL MYSTICAL PLACE
THESE WONDEROUS CREATURES BIRTHED OF WOOD AND HIDE
FLOATING ME ON WAVES MORE POWERFUL THAN THE TIDE
LEADING ME DOWN A PATH YET TO BE TREAD
IN THE UNDERWORLD I LAY MY BODY IN THE STARS I LAY MY HEAD
SO I RIDE THE WINDHORSE ON THE JOURNEY AS IT BEGINS
FOLLOWING THE HOOFBEATS ON A ROAD THAT NEVER ENDS

I AM WHO I AM

DOES NO ONE UNDERSTAND ME
I TRY TO DO MY VERY BEST
FOR GOOD I TAKE A STAND
NO ONE SEES THE MAN I WANT TO BE
JUST THE BOY I REALLY AM
PRIDE BIGOTRY HATRED EMOTIONS UNNEEDED
BUT ALAS TIED TO ME BY BLOOD
SHEDDING WHO I WAS BECOMING WHO IAM
CAN ANYONE POSSIBLY LOVE ME
DO I REALLY EVEN LOVE MYSELF
BLAME ALL OF LIFES WOES ON THE EXTERNAL
TO LOOK IN THE MIRROR HARDER BY FAR
IS LIFE TO BLAME FOR MY POOR CHOICES
LACK OF FEELING AND STUPIDITY
I AM WHO I AM  FOR GOOD OR BAD
TIMMYS ONE FUCKED UP MAN

FAGGOT

FAGGOT QUEER SISSY
THE NAMES OF MY CHILDHOOD
NOW WORN WITH PRIDE
SURVIVAL MY QUEST
EMOTIONS SHUT DOWN
IT'S HOW I EXISTED
TORTURED BY ASSHOLES
NO TEARS SHED BY ME
THOUGH DYING INSIDE
STRENGTH MY SOLUTION
I TOOK IT ALL IN STRIDE
FAR FROM MY HOME
I MUST RESIDE
SMALL TOWN HATRED
MORE THAN I COULD ABIDE
FAMILY AND FRIENDS LOST ALONG THE WAY
SO MUCH FOR PRIDE AND THE SINS OF YESTERDAY

GONE

MOTHER FATHER WHERE ARE YOU
I'M SO LOST AND ALONE
DON'T YOU LOVE ME
DON'T YOU MISS ME
I'M STILL YOUR CHILD THOUGH GROWN
JUST LIKE YESTERDAY STILL ALONE
I'M 10 YEARS OLD AND YOU'RE BOTH GONE

DESPAIR

A CHILD OF BLISS
HAPPY AND UNDISTURBED BY LIFE
ROBBED OF EVERYTHING BY DEATH
SURVIVING ALONE AND FORSAKEN
ABANDONED BY THE FATES
LEFT ALONE AND ADRIFT
MY YOUTH GONE AND DRIED UP
WASTED LIFE WASTED YEARS
THEN A SMILE A LAUGH
ARMOR CRACKING HEART MELTING
LOVE BLOSSOMS ONCE AGAIN
OH CRUEL FATE FICKLE WIND
RAW AND OPEN TO EVERYTHING
DAM WASHED AWAY EMOTIONS OUT OF CONTROL
IT WAS ALL FOR NAUGHT
BACK TURNED HARSH WORDS
REALIZATION COMES TOO LATE
HE WANTED MY LIFE NOT ME
HEART STOLEN AND TRAMPLED
LOVE THROWN AWAY ON A MONSTER
I'M LEFT WITH RUIN AND DESTRUCTION
DROWNING IN AN UNESCAPABLE PIT OF DESPAIR
 

HOPE IS DEAD

TEAR DUCTS DRY AND SORE
RIBS ACHE WITH TORTURED SOBS
THROAT CLOSED WITH PAIN
UNABLE TO DRAW A BREATH
THIS IS HELL
MIND CHURNING WITH WHAT IF'S
HEART LONGING
ARMS ACHE WITH LOSS
LOVE WASTED FEELINGS FORSAKEN
WALLOWING IN SELF PITY
TEETH GNASHING SOBS OF PAIN
TEARING AT MY FLESH
WANTING MY BODY TO ACHE
AS MUCH AS MY SOUL
WILL THE AGONY EVER END
I THINK THE TEARS ARE GONE
THEN LIKE THE TIDE THEY
WASH OVER ME AGAIN
CLINGING TO SANITY BY A THREAD
HOW CAN I HOLD ON.................
WHEN HOPE IS DEAD AND GONE