ILLUSION/REALITY

LONELINESS DEAFENING
HEARTBREAK OVERPOWERING
DESPERATION EVERYWHERE
LOVE AN ILLUSION
PAIN IS REALITY
DROWNING IN BITTER TEARS
HEART AND SOUL DYING
THE EMPTY SHELL LIVES
UNABLE TO BREAK THE CYCLE
WHY AM I HERE................TRAPPED ALL THESE YEARS

ARCHER

I SHOULD'VE KNOWN
I COULD'VE RUN
DANGER FAR FROM MY MIND
ARCHER HIS NAME, HOW FITTING
HIS ARROW PIERCED MY HEART
I'M CAPTURED WILLINGLY
HOW IRONIC HE HUNTS FOR SPORT
HEARTS LIKE TROPHIES ON THE WALL
MINE AND UNKNOWN COUNTLESS OTHERS
DOES HE DELIGHT IN THE KILL
OR JUST THE TORTURE OF THE HUNT
HOW DO I ESCAPE EMOTIONAL SHACKLES
I BUILT MY OWN CAGE
TRAPPED BY A FOOLISH HEART
PAINTED THE BULLSEYE ON MYSELF
NOW INDIFFERENCE AND PITY MOCK ME
A LIFE LESSON HE TELLS ME
WHAT LESSON IN SUFFERING AND TORMENT
BETTER A QUICK PAINLESS KILL
NO RELEASE FOR ME TRAPPED IN MISERY STILL
 

BLINDED

HOW DO YOU FOCUS ON THE POSITIVE
WHEN BLINDED AND OVERWHELMED BY NEGATIVITY
DECADES GONE AND ALWAYS ALONE
NO ONE TO LOVE ME OR CALL ME THEIR OWN
FRIENDS TRY TO COMFORT ME AND CHERISH MY SOUL
BUT THAT DOESNT WARM YOU THROUGH LONG BITTER NIGHTS
SHIVERING AND ALONE COWERING IN FRIGHT
FORSAKEN BY LOVE TAUNTED BY HINDSIGHT
BETRAYED BY FALSE HOPE AND DELUSIONS
INSTINCTS DRIVEN MAD BY GUILT AND CONFUSION
ALONE COVERED IN DARKNESS LONGING
NEEDING TO BE HELD AND LOVED
UNABLE TO CONNECT WITH ANOTHER
FRUSTRATION AND ANGER FILL ME WITH BILE
CURSING FATE AND THE GODS ONE AND THE SAME
TOSSING AND TURNING BEREFT IN THE NIGHT
STILL ALONE AND CONFUSED AT THE DAWNING OF LIGHT

ONCE

A BABY'S SMILE
DOGS WAGGING TAIL
INNOCENT BEAUTIFUL
FILLED WITH BRITE PROMISE
PROOF OF THE DIVINE
BLISSFUL ONCE
FULL OF HOPE AND HAPPINESS
THEN MY WORLD RIPPED ASSUNDER
TRANQUILITY DESTROYED
DROPPED INTO DESOLATION AND DESPAIR
UNABLE TO ESCAPE
YEAR ROLL BY
GRINDING HOPE INTO DUST
UNABLE TO LOVE
UNABLE TO TRUST
HOW TO REGAIN INNOCENCE LOST
WAS IT REAL
WAS IT A DREAM
WAS I HAPPY AND WHOLE
MEMORIES FILTERED THROUGH BLOOD STAINED TEARS
I WAIL AND LAMENT THOSE INNOCENT YEARS

MYTH/FANTASY?

LOVE PASSION
MYTH FANTASY
DESIRE LONELINESS
ONE AND THE SAME
DARKNESS AHEAD
LIFE'S A LONELY ROAD
BARREN AND WASTED
NO HOPE NO LOVE
HOW IT MUST FEEL
TO LAUGH AND SMILE
TO HOLD SOMEONE CLOSE
NOT MY FORTE NOT FOR ME
EMPTINESS AND SORROW
THIS JOURNEY CALLED LIFE
MY TRAIL OF TEARS
FALLING INTO OBLIVION
CRAWLING EXHAUSTED
NO ESCAPE
NO WHITE KNIGHT
NO HOPE OF RESCUE
IS THERE NO RELIEF
NO RESPITE FROM AGONY
NEW DAY DAWNS.......................HOPELESS AGAIN

CLOAKS

PATHETIC DISGUSTING
USELESS FAT
UGLY STUPID
DELUSIONAL REPULSIVE
THE CLOAKS THAT SURROUND ME
MY MANTLE TO BEAR
LONELINESS MY CURSE
FOREVER MY DESPAIR
NO ONE LOVES ME
NO ONE EVEN CARES

KARMAS A BITCH

EVER ALONE CHNCES GONE
LIFES LITTLE JOKE
AND I'M THE BRUNT
GIVEN A HUGE CAPACITY TO LOVE
THEN CURSED TO BE ALONE
KARMA'S A BITCH
THAT MUCH I KNOW
HOW EVIL WAS I
WHAD ATROCITIES DID I COMMIT
NOW MY SUFFERING IS ENDLESS
HEARTBREAK AT EVERY TURN
WILL I NEVER LEARN
AN EXPERIENCE IN TERROR
A LIFE LIVED IN LONELINESS
SUFFOCATING FROM THE PAIN
HAPPINESS OUT OF REACH
THE STENCH OF DECAY OVERWHELMS
ALONE AGAIN.........................

ONE MOMENT

FOR ONE BRIEF MOMENT HAPPINESS
LOOKING UP INTO THE SUN
MY HEART FILLED WITH JOY
THEN I WAS PUSHED OVER THE CLIFFS
LYING SHATTERED ON THE ROCKS BELOW
NOW I'M BROKEN AND BATTERED
BONES PROTRUDING FLESH BLEEDING
AGONY OVERWHELMS ME
LIKE THE GREAT TIDE COMING IN
SUFFERING SUPREME
SUCH A TRAGIC ENDING
NOW I SEE THE DANGER
LOVE LIGHT WILL BLIND YOU
THEN REALITY WILL FIND YOU
LET THE ENDLESS HORROR BEGIN....................

DECEPTOR

HE WAS A BEAUTY
SMILE LIKE SUNSHINE
LAUGHTER SWEET RAIN
HAIR SPUN SILK
SKIN ALABASTER
LIPS RIPE AND FULL
A BODY TO DIE FOR
DECEPTOR HIS NAME
I THOUGHT HE LOVED ME
DELUSIONS OF GRANDUER
HURT JUST THE SAME
LIES NOT PASSION
ALL JUST AN EVIL GAME
BUT IF MY HEART BREAKS
CAN IT BE BLAMED
OLVE LIFE IRONY
ONE AND THE SAME

PAIN

CAN PAIN KILL ME
I FEEL I'M DYING
SLOWLY LIFE FADING AWAY
MY HEART IS DEAD
WILL IT STOP BEATING
MUST I SUFFER FOREVER
HOW THE DEAD HEART ACHES
LIKE RAZORS HAVE RIPPED ME
I LAY BLEEDING AND RAW
BATHED IN MY SORROW
LONGING FOR RELEASE
BITTERNESS FLOWS THROUGH MY VEINS
SWIMMING IN AN OCEAN OF TEARS
A MARTYR FOR LOVE
USELESS AND WANTING
A BITTER CYCLE
OVER AND OVER AGAIN
UNTIL FINALLY SOMEDAY.................DEATHS SWEET EMBRACE TAKES THE PAIN

MY ..................

MY REALITY YOUR DELUSION
MY TRUTH YOUR LIE
MY LOVE IS WASTED
MY HEART IS BROKEN
MY SOUL IS BARREN
MY LOINS ARE ACHING
MY EYES BURN WITH TEARS
MY MIND RACES WITH QUESTIONS
MY EMTINESS KNOWS NO BOUNDRIES
MY PAIN ENGULFS ME
MY SOBS ROCK ME
MY SORROW OVERWHELMS ME
MY LIFE IS WANTING
MY HOPE HAS FADED
MY MIND KNOWS THE TRUTH
MY HEART JUST WON'T LISTEN
MY ARMS LONG TO HOLD YOU
MY LIPS LONG TO KISS YOU
MY SOUL LONGS TO DIE
MY CHANCE PASSED ME BY

WHY

WHY AM I HERE
WHY AM I ALONE
WHY WON'T HE LOVE ME
WHY DO I TRY
WHY IS ALL HOPE GONE
WHY DOES IT HURT
WHY DO I CRY
WHY DIDN'T I KNOW
WHY IS LOVE A LIE
WHY GO ON
WHY CAN'T I STOP
WHY GET UP
WHY CAN'T I DIE
WHY DO HEARTS BREAK
WHY DO LIPS LIE
WHY IS HE FICKLE
WHY DO I CARE
WHY AM I UGLY
WHY DOES IT MATTER
WHY...................................

SHINING

SHINING LIKE A BEACON
HIS LIGHT CUT THROUGH MY DARKNESS
THE SUNLIGHT OF HIS SMILE
WARMED MY COLD SOUL
UNABLE TO STOP
I BASKED IN HIS GLOW
BLINDED BY HIS BEAUTY
I COULDN'T SEE THE DANGER
NOW I'M DROWNING IN TORRENTS OF TEARS
AND THE MELTING OF MY FROZEN HEART
SILVER BLOOD ADDICTIVE
HIS LAUGHTER INTOXICATING
ONE SMILE AND I WAS LOST
HIS KISS CAPTURED MY HEART
NOW LIKE SMOKE HE'S FLOATING AWAY
NAKED AND FREEZING
I LONG FOR THE FIRE OF HIS LOVE
FOREVER LOOKING O'RE THE HORIZON
FOR THE RETURN OF SOMETHING
THAT WAS NEVER THERE

GRANDMOTHERS BLESSING

I FOLLOW THE VISION TO GRANDMOTHERS DOOR
IT'S A LOVELY PLACE I'VE BEEN MANY TIMES BEFORE
SHE WELCOMES ME IN BIG OLE SMILE ON HER FACE
OPEN ARMS BECKONS ME FORWARD AS WE EMBRACE
SHE CRADLES ME SOFTLY AS TEARS BEGIN TO FALL
SHE STROKES MY HAIR AND CRUMBLES MY WALLS
THEN THERE ARE NO MORE TEARS LEFT NOTHING TO SHED
I SEE A ROAD FILLED WITH LAUGHTER AND JOY UP AHEAD
SHE'S MENDED MY RIFT ONCE AGAIN I AM WHOLE
REGAINED MY CHILDHOOD THAT FRESH INNOCENT SOUL
SHE MADE ME WHOLE I PASSED HER TEST
WITH HER BLESSING I FLY FREE FROM THE NEST
I AWAKE IN A FIELD COVERED BY THE MOON AND STARS
NUDE AND BEAUTIFUL WITH NO SIGN OF MY UGLY SCARS
I HEAR HER SWEET VOICE ECHO IN THE BREEZE
JUST BE TRUE TO YOURSELF GRANDMOTHER'S PLEASED
REMEMBER WARRIORS COME IN ALL SHAPES AND FORMS
YOU FIGHT FOR WHAT'S RIGHT BUT DO NO ONE HARM
SPREAD LOVE AND LIGHT FOR THAT'S WHO YOU ARE
WITH GRANDMOTHERS BLESSING YOU'RE SURE TO GO FAR